I hope you’re happy
You climbed up me like ivy
Spreading me apart
You opened the black hole that is now my heart
You took what you wanted
Left me all alone
But I am supposed to care cus that's what familys for
I have no home anymore
I left this earth a long time ago
I am a body not a soul
You shattered me
I hope you're happy
Lost in the cosmos of my mind
I know it's fake
But barely
Realitys are separating
And as I walk down the halls
The walls are out to get me
And everytime I pass a face
They hear every thought i've made
It's a lonley existence
Being so interconnected in space
I am a God I rule it all
Untill dusk starts to fall
The shadows want to take me away
The bugs they surround me
Everyone is out to get me
I'm tired of this fate
Wonderings of a lost mind part 1
I feel like a god only feel it when i'm manic
and you seem to think that im just a bit dramtic
and I keep telling you that im loosing my mind
and im not sure even where my sence of time went
and when you look at me all that you see is a girl lost and alone
bloog drips aganst the stone flows through the cracks maken a home
I've got to many emotions to name to much baggage at the baggage claim
nothing will be the same nothing is the same
Hypothetical suicide note
My face will fade from memories
My voice will be forgotten
Little bits of me slip away
But in the end I guess it works out
Cus pain from death fades away but pain from living does not
The fighting will cease, the crying will stop all with time
Teardrops will dry
And one day you will catch yourself living a normal life again
Till the only time you think of me are birthdays
I never said it would be easy but look at the alternitve
Your daughter decaying yet still alive
Her time was up yet you kept her here
Now she will pay the price
Cus all she does is hurt
She hurts others and herself
She is broken beond repair
You all have tried
A good effort they did
But in the end it's all the same
She is dead
draft one untitled song
I am lost inside my mind/trying to find you
You know what I know/it's fine we know truth
Cus i've lost alot and learned alot and i'd rather not loose you
i'm trying to seek out the sadness that's eating you
oohh your gone I've just about moved on/ohhh but i get roped back in every time I yearn to call you mine call you mineeeeee but we have run out of time of time
I've found the secret passige way your mental hideaway away from me
Quick, the clocks are ticking if we are getting out and make it back then run please run
cus I have lost some more you walked out the door without ever looking back
I cried so many times I can't keep track
oohh your gone I've just about moved on/ohhh but i get roped back in every time I yearn to call you mine call you mineeeeee but we have run out of time of time
Don't you realize what you've done ooo down the rabbit hole we go and i'm just trying to keep my head above the waves and you have dived to deep
oohh your gone I've just about moved on/ohhh but i get roped back in every time I yearn to call you mine call you mineeeeee but we have run out of time of time
(loud again) oohh your gone I've just about moved on/ohhh but i get roped back in every time I yearn to call you mine call you mineeeeee but we have run out of time of time
So leave if wanna scream if you wanna bleed if you wanna just don't hurt me
leave if wanna scream if you wanna bleed if you wanna just don't hurt me
leave if wanna scream if you wanna bleed if you wanna just don't hurt me
leave if wanna scream if you wanna bleed if you wanna just don't hurt me
oohh your gone I've just about moved on/ohhh but i get roped back in every time I yearn to call you mine call you mineeeeee but we have run out of time of time
Secret undercuts and long blonde hair
Once when I was around 8 I was at the zoo. I saw this girl around my age with the most wonderful hair I had ever seen! Her head was shaved completely on one side long blonde hair on the other. I wanted that more than I had ever wanted something in my life. I asked my mother who than proceeded to tell me my hair was very pretty as it was and I was doing nothing to it. Later around 11 I took a razor to my locks. I shaved off just enough for me to notice. The secret undercut if my dreams. I loved to run my fingers over the velvety patch of hair long gone and giggle as I had gotten away with such a feat. Of course my mother found out and I was banned from ever doing it again. I still yearn for the feeling of running my hands over buzzed hair and feeling the adrenaline of getting away with what I wanted so. One day I might do it again I never know but I still think shaved hair on girls is cool!