Fallen Tree
Fallen tree
Hard to keep your feelings inside
When your tears committing suicide
Wish you had someone by your side
Or an umbrella that can keep you dry
But your ego steady pushing people aside
Your pride is on a crash course
To turning your heart cold
Getting harder stay strong
Living alone got you wishing for a clone
Or even a dog to take on walks
You try to be social without showing emotion
But you can't even open your mouth without choking
Afraid to ask for help
Cause you don't want to be judge
But sharing experiences can dig you out the mud
You steady lashing out
In hope, someone gets the picture
But you won't allow anyone to buy the issue
So no one wants to be next to you
Playing games with people brains
Will only make you go insane
You going to be the next man in hang-man
Because you want people to ask do you need help
But instead, they all they see is go fuck yourself
Guess that new ceiling fan going to come in handy
When you tie that belt around your neck
And turn red like Spider-Man
You hope someone comes and visit
Cause you only doing it for attention
But no one knows the difference
You became the fallen tree in the forest
But there is no one there to witness
Back Seat Convo
Back seat convo
I didn't grow up with wishing wells
So I give my money to the homeless and wish them well
Survival is a must when you run out of luck
Have to do what it takes when your mistakes run out of lessons
Mind steady racing
Wondering when You going to catch a blessing
Insides wrestling to keep the food pin
Even though it hurt still have to walk around with a grind
No one trying to listen
So you hold up signs
hope someone pays attention
You asking for change
But change ain't going to make a difference
If it don't create a home
Or make you hurt less
Don't hold your breath
Even though your life is underwater
Still, need room to move forward
Aim for the bushes when you feel like jumping
Playing with concrete won't make you stronger
Suicide don't mean you get to start over
So count living as blessing
You are a soldier to someone that plans on enlisting
Keeping youngsters off the streets
Watching you grief
I know that's sucks
But someone has to muscle up
Least it gives you a FUCK to give
Knowing all that's been taking
It's strange how much you can learn from a naked soul
But remember as long as your alive
You have time to grow
I drove through bunch of lives
Like obesity weighing on people's minds
But I'm still alone without a home
Watch cars go by and nobody
Have time to give me a dime
Didn't know it was a crime
To say hi to the innocent person in the back seat
I know my clothes are beat
But doesn't mean they can throw words at me
Trade shoes with me
Oh wait I have bare feet
Y'all wear slides just to go outside
While I'm sliding cause my feet is stuck to the street
If you watch closely
you will see the tear that does magic to my smile
Yall tell me to get a job
But won't pay me for cleaning your windows
Now you see why I'm poor
I would be making a killing
If the red light lasted for 24 hours
But then Y'all would feel my struggle
For I would never ask anyone
To fight with rats over scraps
Or dig in the trash for a snack
There's Not enough room on this sign to tell my story
But I thank you for listening
For your ears has been a blessing
So go ahead and put your foot on the gas
Don't you dare look back
This life I'm living isn't where it's at.
Communication
Communication
I listen, I hear, I see but you don't believe me
Cause my skin brown and I'm from a different generation than you
So you think it's okay to beat me
Im someone's child I know you have one too
Why can't you think before you shoot
Your peers won't be mad if you do
It's better than my mother grieving
And my father acting similar as you
Please don't make that move
Give me a chance to finish school
Let me prove my life is worth it
Yes my future is uncertain
But who are you to take my life
We can stand toe to toe and fight
But im going to be the bigger man
Put my hands up and and walk away
I rather for us to meet on different circumstance
Man this feel like a stick up
If you going shoot then hurry up
I have home work todo
I'm only eager to do it cause I met you
Boom boom boom
My future became a dream
My past becomes all I have
I pray to God that he has my back
And forgives you
No need to cry now you made your move
Now watch my people march
For they will never forgive you
Now your life is in danger
Turn your family into strangers
Just cause you didn't know how to use a taser
On the way
On the way
I wake up and cry
I pray I was able to fly
My mistakes have my wings torn
Between the ground and the sky
Feet getting tired keeping me alive
Every breath like a popped balloon
Can't find no strength to fill the gap
Afraid I'll die on my back
dreaming of life on the top
I keep my mouth closed
My lips is the key to Pandora's box
No one wanted to help
So I keep it locked until I run out of hope
Don't think it will be long as I'm slipping down this slope
Obstacles blocking the door to the other side
There's no place to hide
As the tunnel looses light
I can only prepare to fight
For my smile isn't enough for a clear path
So I choke down fear and rescue courage
I'm going to need it on my team
If I'm going to reach my dreams
All I want is to be free
If you not going to help then watch out
I'm not going to give up
Cause I haven't left the ground
Despite the words you throw at me
It's not enough to hold me back
Like the dagger my home boy forgot
Born
Born
I was born to survive
So why I'm surrounded by death
The tears I shed burn my face
For being sad is a gift and a curse
Never thought being grown
Meant you had to live alone
I try to learn form others misfortunes
But I'm still trying to work through my own
I was raised to thrive
Always looked past the finish line
As if I was next in line to fly
They said my laugh is contagious
So why they not laughing
When I say I'm going to make it
Seems I'm immune to the gases in the air
It's only fair that I share
i was born to be free
There's no chains that can hold me
I stay humble
In order to move forward
Keep the negativity from hurting me
Tough skin don't come easily
Suicide is never on my mind
Don't think working will kill me
I was born to be hungry
Missing a meal is beneath me
Being a monster is never ending
When everybody starving
World full of zombies
Every man for themselves
Fighting over a piece of meat
that's how i survived
Guess I was born to be the smartest human being alive.
Bully no more
Bully no more
Whose the blame for my pain
Why should I stay in the game
Even my feelings and emotions are at each other's throats
Whose the blame for my pain
Why should I stay in the game
No matter where I walk it rains
Whose the blame for my pain
Why should I stay in the game
When my name brings you shame
You tend to make me look strange
I'm the only human with horns
I know you said your sorry
But everyday hurts even more
You make me apologize as if I'm the blame
You stop hinting that you want me dead
Now you just throw it in my face
Why should I stay in the game
Just knowing i would be the blame
Only make sense to blow my brain
At least the pain will stop
And no one would be able to point the finger
Because my finger be on the trigger
All I ever wanted was to be loved
But it's abuse that gives me the most hugs
I'm tired of alcohol
I'm tired of the hospital
Why I can't I be a child that has fun
Instead of living in a wheelchair
Or standing on crunches
I guess its only one way to change
Trust me I see you in hell
But don't forget the hell you brought me everyday
I don't want to go this way
But it's either me or you
I can't allow you to take my life away.
Empty handed pt1
Empty handed pt. 1
Sorry I don't pray every day
But hunger pains drives me crazy
Never thought dying was a great idea
Until I wasn't able to keep down my reality
I think about the past
And hope my future catch-up
This prayer isn't a plead for forgiveness
Instead i hope to speed the process up
Either kill me now or make me rich
But some way I'm getting away from this
I come from a family of drugs
I was born high but I can't seem to climb my way up
I keep my head and my knees tuck
To keep my stomach from talking to the public
If they not willing to hear me why should they listen to my belly
During the night I feel chills go down my spine
I thought it was the father of death to tell me it's my time
Instead it's the holes in my shirt to remind me I'm alone
The bridges give me shade and the trash keeps me warm
Please oh please make a decision
If I wake up tomorrow I expect to be in a home
Not still lying on the floor
The rats live better than me
They can Escape the puddles
And plus they act as a family
While my family not willing to help me
Not sure if they are in heaven which is why I don't talk to them
I'll go anywhere where people will love me.
Dead standby
Dead standby
Bones start to pop as the soul forgets who's boss
Facial expression reminds you of your worst accident
Pain fills your heart
It's not sympathy you feel it's the lack of understanding
As Fear flows through the veins of the solid being trying to find the blood that remains
Only bringing down the walls that hang
Like putting the finishing touch on hangman
You can see the smell and the air collide like best friends coming in for high fives
Innocent people stand by not willing to give a hand because there hand won't bring him back to life
As time goes by people's cries turn into secrets for their eyes tell no lies
They just watched a man die.
People are scared cause they don't know why
Afraid it will haunt them for the rest of their lives
Only if it could be justified as in why the man died
There was no time to say good bye
As the white sheet covers his eyes
You can only hope the bugs don't get the best of him
Police collecting testimony from every one that standby
Only to find out stress is why the man died
Heart attack
Heart-attack
A noise that makes you fall
Images that return the fun
Why oh why are questions you ask
while your trying to be tough
But it seems your heart is tougher
Because you can hear it over your quivering whispers
A facial expression that you hope know one remembers
But too late fear already snapped a picture
And put you out of commission