“The moon is beautiful isn’t it?”

I asked you that with full transparency

And despite the minimal distance between your shoulder and mine

You didn’t seem to mind

You flashed me a smile

Then before I knew it

Our fingers were intertwined

No words were spoken but an answer lingered in the air

Finally, you caressed my hair and answered

“I think the moon is beautiful.”

Somehow I misheard that moon as you

But I didn’t really care

Take my hand

We’ll be alright

The moon looks pretty tonight

For a while you and I can simply share this moment

It’s a way to bide time

Until the sunrise

I miss you

I know it’s not mutual

I miss you in the mornings and sob during the commute

I miss you when dusk takes over and I see the moon

I miss you in the whirlwind of life and the flickering static of lights at night

And I lie down in bed wondering when the stirring in my chest will cease and feel alright

But why?

There’s nothing to miss so this distance should feel like bliss

No more tiptoeing on egg shells and analyzing what’s amiss

No more unspoken animosities and apologies that always miss

No more what ifs and no more doubts

No more cuts from shattered fragments of trust

And no more constant breaks and rebounds

This is quiet but even then

I miss you still

I hate that I miss you

I really do

Because in spite of everything that has ensued, it feels like I’ll never stop yearning for you

What do I even miss?

I don’t miss my partner

Dating led to distress, distance and disruption

I miss the bashful boy within

My endearing friend who made plans on a whim

The person I was getting to know

The one who dished out witty quips

Even as he stumbled and tripped

Over words, over pebbles, flitting gazes but it really showed

The sincerity you held

The beginnings of friendship

A spark vanquished in the wind

Where did that unfiltered adoration go?

Home is where your heart is

That's what they all say

But to me, home isn't a set place

It's the warmth I feel within your embrace

The way the world morphs into a brighter place as you ramble about your day

How your laughter is carried through the wind's ginger grace

You take some of the weight of the world away

And even though life is a continuous gray

I hope I get to see your smile each day

It was a late weekday night and I was moping with a friend

And although I don't remember the exact words they said

The conversation will always linger in my head

Romance is dead

they cried

face beet red

But I stopped to think

That simply isn't true

As I slowly glance, I see love in the bleakest of places too

Awe stricken commentary revering the moon

Serendipitous sighs as the sky shifts pastel hues

Smiles accompanied by the rare autumn breeze

And laughs and astonishment with camaraderie between peers

Love is everywhere, that much I can tell

But emotions are a tangle we don't know too well

Even though finding the one is an arduous flop

We can appreciate the enthusiasm and unfiltered love that surrounds us all

Simply by listening to the world's subtle pleas and reprimands

To slowly explore and find what satisfies our heart's demands

I've been here numerous time

I already know where this is going to lead

But in the end I take the leap

Again

When my funeral comes, I hope no one sheds a tear

After all, the moment I’ve been waiting for my whole life is finally here

Erase my accolades and forget about my career

That’s not what I want to be remembered for

It’s kinda weird

I detest the thought of being revered

I could care less about how many hours I clocked

Or how many certificates adorn my beige walls

Please don’t reminisce about my smile

It’s just a mask

There’s no need to pine over the past

I just want to depart quietly

My time is up

And yours is not

Make the most of what you got

the TedEd monkey has seized control again

somehow soaring over tumultuous seas

seized by a driving hyper focus

and yet it can't slay the beast

Because you're procrastinating and you can't finish half a semester in one night

Or can you?

Being spontaneous made me feel happy. The allure of uncertainty whispered a multitude of charming possibilities. I strode along aimlessly hoping for the chance of something happening serendipitously.

At least that’s how I felt before I met you.

I used to adore change but now I crave consistency. People come and go but I’m hoping your company will always feel like home. The crinkle in your smile and the glimmer in your eyes will never cease to make my heart rate rise. Simply being with you gives me motivagion to push through all sorts of tribulations and trials.

How you act may change with time. Change is inevitable. However, I’m confident that the inspiration you instill in others remains the sams.

I invite you to stay by my side even as life ebbs and flows with the tides.

Fate is fickle but one thing’s for sure. My adoration for you will linger forevermore.

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TL;DR- Failed poetic rizz attempt

Pacing back and forth between the infamous liminal space of a 7/11 at midnight made me realize...

How much my clunky, junky wallet could actually buy

Although most of it consisted of wrinkled receipts and expired coupons,

a crumpled stack of fives was still enough to buy

A dozen cups of instant ramen

A handful of M and Ms

Fruit roll ups for miles

Stale plastic wrapped pastries suddenly seem worthwhile

Or if I was feeling more umami today

I could snag a carton of three dollar fries

A can of pringles and a questionable packet of microwave fried rice

All these bold yellow price stickers highlighted the perfect advertisement for my demise