A white cloud drifts from above

Filling those around me in fear

Yet I am not afraid

The white cloud brings peace

Silence

The people flee

Yet I watch, and wait

I see the beauty of the ash

How it will preserve our lives

I see the future

That many will learn from us

And I feel peace

That my time has come at last

I am the eagle

Who must be reborn

Ripping out my own feathers

Taht no longer allow me to fly

Tearing away the feathers that bind

Tearing away the feathers of fear

Then I crack my beak

Painfully cutting off the words

The words that hurt me

The words that hurt others

I hide upon the peaceful mountain

Burying myself in shadow

Until my beak grows anew

Carrying words of wisdom

And my new wings can spread

And fly

Alone in the dark

It whispers

The shadow comes alive

It taunts

Darkness and death

Its only message

I feel it coming for me

The shadow steals over me

And I sleep of the dead

Awake to morning's light

And wish to again

Feel the peace of death

The void opens

A pool of the deepest black

The surface ripples

Beckoning me forward

I dip a toe into the void

Experimenting

Teh numbness is soothing

I venture further

Immersing my leg to the knee

It feels cool

Yet I feel nothing

I sit at the edge

Inching my way in

The void embraces me

And I find peace

Darkness intrudes

Mixed with mirth

Insomnia at its worst

Bizzarre dreams

Disorientation

Losing touch with reality

Brief moments

Of pure insanity

Mixed with sadness

Despair for the state

Of mind and emotion

Wise enough to see

But too weak to overcome

An itch that can't be scratched

My mind twitches in agony

Fragments of thought

Twitter annoyingly

Like chaotic birds

Flying outside formation

No one thought

Linked to another

I shiver, close my eyes

And hope for solace

Pain, blood, death

They surround me

In peaceful moments

A flash, sudden, surprising

It takes me unawares

The sudden images

Of death and destruction

I am being haunted

By an unseen force

Its mission to make me mad

Insane, as I am becoming

Until at last

In a flood of images

I realize the truth

That the images are memories

And the demon is me

The pain is excruciating

Gnawing at my guts

Ripping apart my insides

I scream to get it out

But it just burrows deeper

At last I tire of the fight

And only wish for death

Walking through the streets

Unsuspecting, safe

Feeling a chill in the air

Knowing someone is there

But seeing nothing

Walking faster now

Weary, yet safe still

Feeling a shiver

Looking for me

But seeing no one

I appear suddenly

A scream escapes

A tight embrace

I bow my head, sinking in

Pain, and I drink deep

Red hot blood flows

My veins burn

Each heartbeat

Resounds in my ears

Drowning the screams

And bringing me peace

The heart slows

The drums cease

I finish my feast

Look down at such beauty

And drop you to the ground

I walk on