Im walking a tight rope between rage and bliss. Anger and fear give way to the silence of tears. Arms bent in the quiet catacombs of your hell. Face down in the mud ridden back roads of insanity and mistakes. Remove the film my love. Wash it clean with southern rain. Bring me to my salvation. Caress my skin with your addled touch until I am redeemed. Freed from the burdens of guilt and shame. Release me from the chains that bind my broken soul. So that I may search through eternity for the preservation of your mind.
Scoffing at Independence
You must understand, humans are a paradox. We are aggressive and self confident outside, when we understand we are weak and inferior inside. The quieter the human mouth, the louder the human mind. We fight ourselves in the name of peace. Even though we are one species, we draw lines in the sand and claim we are independant from our brothers and sisters. I ask you not to save us for a our greatness, rather take pity of our foolishness. Our consciousness was misstep in evolution, one which has wrought a plague on the only planet we’ve ever had.
the teenage boy
i met a religious girl once
she said she loved me
my heart would light up seeing her
she said she loved me
i would smile at her at church
she said she loved me
and she would smile back so pretty
she said she loved me
i introduced myself and said hi
she said she loved me
i met her dad and shook his hand
she said she loved me
i asked her to dinner and we danced
she said she loved me
she held my clammy hand
she said she loved me
i was astounded someone so beautiful
she said she loved me
could be mine
she said she loved me
we snuck out once at 4am, sunrise
she said she loved me
i kissed her under the orange glare
she said she loved me
she grinned when i got her flowers
she said she loved me
she started spending her time with me
she said she loved me
she would cheer loudest at my games
she said she loved me
and yell at the refs, defending me
she said she loved me
she was never embarrassed by me
she said she loved me
i broke my leg and she was by my side
she said she loved me
she always said helping was God's way
she said she loved me
i told her i loved her
she said she loved me
when we watched the stars together
she said she loved me
she wanted to wait until marriage
she said she loved me
so we could have all of each other
she said she loved me
and every piece of me could be hers
she said she loved me
she surprised me once with a picnic
she said she loved me
we shared spaghetti
she said she loved me
and kissed lady and the tramp style
she said she loved me
she would let me pick movies
she said she loved me
she didn't mind that i was broke
she said she loved me
she called me her heaven on earth
she said she loved me
she hugged me when my dad died
she said she loved me
she held me when i cried
she said she loved me
i started drinking and she stopped me
she said she loved me
she said i was perfect
she said she loved me
and she could never stop loving me
she said she loved me
but my heart felt so dark
she said she loved me
one day her friend came onto me
she said she loved me
i fucked her best friend
she said she loved me
and i told her
and she wished she didn't love me
she said she loved me
and i broke her heart.
for what?
Silence....
We were staring at each other as the deafening sound of silence grew louder with every breath I took. The silence gnawed at my insides, it hung in the air like the suspended moment before a falling glass shatters on the ground. The silence was like a gaping void, needing to be filled with sounds, words, anything. The silence was poisonous in it's nothingness, cruelly underscoring how loud our argument had become. The silence was eerily unnatural, like a dawn devoid of birdsong, it clung to the air like a puff of cigarette smoke. Silence seeped into our every pore, a poison slowly paralyzing us from either speech or movement.
