"So... how do you know Billy?"

"I work with his wife."

"Oh, cool."

"..."

"Where do you guys work?"

"NFH Insurance agency downtown. She went through orientation with me."

"Oh, wow. Lucky. It's cool you stayed friends."

"We're not really close, but our kids sometimes play together."

"..."

"How do you know them?"

"I'm their neighbor across the street."

"Hmm. I guess it was a short trip."

"Huh! Yeah. It was."

"..."

"..."

"Do you ever wonder whether life is really too short or too long? I feel like I have all these dreams and ambitions, but it's hard enough just getting through the work day and make it home in time for dinner."

"I know! I'm more inclined to believe that society is manipulating us to think that we're capable of so much more when in reality what we're doing now will most likely be what we do for the rest of our lives. It's morbid to think that at first, but I love the way I live my life."

"Seriously! Why am I not allowed to be satisfied with being able to come home to my family every night. Sure, it might be lame to binge watch Netflix with my wife until we fall asleep, but it's what makes us happy. Isn't more important to pursue contentment and belonging rather than forcing your opinions and half-hearted ambitions on the world?"

"I know, right?"

"Yeah."

"..."

"..."

"I'm going to go... check... check on my wife."

"K."

Awakening in a place that’s odly formiliar, yet not quite where you were before.

Am I real, can anyone see me? I panick! I run screaming, can anyone hear me

but my cries are ignorned!

How did I get here? Where is this place? I’m invisible here, no one sees my face.

The weight and thickness of the air overwhelms me to the core.

I have ventured to the place where nightmares are stored! This alternate realm,

is it in my mind? I seem to be trapped and there’s no sense of time.

Oh, please someone hear me! I know I’m not alone! Caught on the other side

of the veil and no way to get back home.

As I awaken to my new reality of an altered life, I see I was not in another realm

at all, people choose to ignore my cries.

No one can save me because no one can see, noone will hear me because they

do not believe I’m me!

I am no longer me I’m sad to say, but I was diagnosed with an illness stealing

all that I love away. Myself, and the people in my life one by one disapeared, tossed

out, left out and shoved away. All due to an illness no one wants to see because

they “just don’t know what to say!” I am not caught up in an alternate reality afterall,

it’s very real but there’s no on to care to catch my fall! I suppose this is the place

where nightmares are stored, trapped in a hell all alone with no love or support.

What is really on the other side of the veil? The people that live there might actually care!

This reality is full of unbelief, lack of compassion and love. We will never be free

until we can rise above. Rise above the stereotypes, judgements and stigmatisms

we as humans do not understand. It would save a lot of lives if others would try

to understand! It’s not in our heads and we aren’t making things up; we just need

a helping hand and to once again feel loved!

#LymeDiseaseAwareness

#Believeus

#LoveaLymie

#WeArePeopleToo

The primordial sin

Scarlet drops from my carnation

Clawing pains of lost creation

The stain of being lesser, weaker

Burdens that we should not speak of

Hearken to the nimble whimpers

Of grabbing stares that flirt with evil

And swelling fruit that sinks its keeper

And petals plucked with reckless hunger

They go over

We go under, under, under

And then,

Miraculous tragedy

For which

We are faulted for an unpaired carriage

But assaulted for discarded package

We are there to be danced with

But not to dance

Only to sing the song they ask

And finally

When we are wilting

Disregarded

Forgotten, bartered

Nothing to ask of

And told we sowed the soil we’re in

But it’s hard

Hard to stand against the wind

When you are cast as

Primordial sin