Imagine the deepest of pain.. 

Imagine the sharpness of a knife, add the sound of it cutting something to give it more effect, the feel of a little cut on your finger...

Imagine the heat of the sun...

thats what the colour red looks like

Go outside and stand in the cold for a bit...

the feeling of sadness?...

its the color blue 

When you have a laugh touch your lips from side to side.... 

imagine a girl spinning in a pretty dress outside in a flower field out in the sun...

its probably what yellow looks like 

The things that can fill-in the darkness my love are the sound and feel and smell and the taste the world has to offer for the memories that sight offers fades quickly. 

Let the sounds of the world and music accompany your mind to places that only it can.

let your skin tell you what only touch can.

let your nose stimulate the cells in your brain. 

Listen to your heart at every feeling that it sends to your entire being good and bad, Joy and Pain. 

heighten all your sense never live a normal day! never get familiar with the way you live! 

Explore all your other senses, eat food you've never tried before and feel your soul with the exotic smell .

Appreciate the slightest tingle on your skin, the slightest mass on your finger tips. 

Take time out to listen to every single instrument and pitch, every tune, flow, beat and the words ... the words that come from what happens in the darkness of someone else's mind. Because out of the darkness can come so much life!

For I remember the way I felt when he touched me more than what his face looks like... his face will change but the feeling will not.

I remember the words and the melody and harmony of that song that amplified the way I felt. 

I crave that chocolate bar and the smell of that cheesy pizza because ice cream is death to sadness.  

We close our eyes and long to stay in the darkness when we kiss... when we pray... when we listen to songs that go strength to our hearts because the best things in life are things that we can not see... 

my heart is heavy..

my heart is heavy for you...

my heart is heavy for you! reaching out to you! oh the need for life to be given to your emotions and conscience that you seem to have killed

WAKE UP!

I'm venting cause its not fun being the happy cheerful one when everyone else around you has changed to be some I-don't-care individual…

and then they complain about being lonely and everyone in the world not being loyal like have you spent a hour with yourself?

what I need is for those of y'all around me all of y'all around me to WAKE UP!

and stop drowning in your unconscious state of darkness so much so that you now even enjoy the sadness...

I don't want to be dimmed out... I fighting to keep my light shining but

it feels like when the darkness is so thick sometimes... it can cover up the light... or dim it out so low its almost not there...

You deserve a good, happy life not one that requires you to be 'self-made' or to only want to 'die-for-the-money'

You deserve to be happy. You deserve to be free. You deserve to be loved and wanted and have laughter be on your lips more times than not

I know I'm suppose to be a light IN the darkness and I'm suppose to spread the light, make other people light too by the Grace of God but...

my heart is heavy for you...

my heart is heavy..

my heart is heavy..

my heart is heavy for you...

my heart is heavy for you! reaching out to you! oh the need for life to be given to your emotions and conscience that you seem to have killed

WAKE UP!

I'm venting cause its not fun being the happy cheerful one when everyone else around you has changed to be some I-don't-care individual…

and then they complain about being lonely and everyone in the world not being loyal like have you spent a hour with yourself?

what I need is for those of y'all around me all of y'all around me to WAKE UP!

and stop drowning in your unconscious state of darkness so much so that you now even enjoy the sadness...

I don't want to be dimmed out... I fighting to keep my light shining but

it feels like when the darkness is so thick sometimes... it can cover up the light... or dim it out so low its almost not there...

You deserve a good, happy life not one that requires you to be 'self-made' or to only want to 'die-for-the-money'

You deserve to be happy. You deserve to be free. You deserve to be loved and wanted and have laughter be on your lips more times than not

I know I'm suppose to be a light IN the darkness and I'm suppose to spread the light, make other people light too by the Grace of God but...

my heart is heavy for you...

my heart is heavy..

You must have heard about it in songs or seen it in movies. 

What they say or show is far from what it is... 

Its another realm of the living.

Another realm where your imagination is in charge.

Its the world were fiction is reality. 

It can be a noun and a verb at the same time. 

In a darkness that is thick enough to touch a dream is real enough to live, 

Oh how is it that in the darkness you see so clearly,

and how in unconsciousness you are awake and alive. 

But it all goes away as this world pulls you back, 

when reality as we know it beckons for your consciousness,

when you awaken from the only portal to the other other side,

from sleep.

I just know it there, I don't know how or from where. 

In my mind and inner person it erupts...

Slowly clouding my consciousness... 

Filling me, Saturating my being!

Need, want, Craaaave,...

Its REAL... 

Little parasites of an abstract emotion that gets it strength from the energy within me.

Not even a little while.... i can't live with out... with out...