Today was a REAL good day.

It wasn't all fake smiles

And forced laughter.

It was getting up,

And feeling okay for once. 

It was doing my job

And not hating everything about it.

It was wanting to strangle people,

But keeping my cool, anyway.

It was a nice day,

Because for once I was sure-

Sure that you didn't hate me,

Sure that we were friends,

Sure that we actually have a chance,

Sure that I would be okay.

I noticed how blue the sky was,

And I basked in the sunlight.

I don't miss you,

And it's been a long time now

Since I felt like this.

It's nice to know that we CAN go back,

If we put our minds to it.

I never knew hell

Till you burned me with lies

I never knew pain

Till you hurt me with betrayal

You think I'll die

With your torture

But I adapted well

With nature

I consume darkness

And become one

With blackness

I adore hatred

And feed on anger

In this isolation

I'm wrath

Standing tall with vengeance

And I'll drag you

Into the pit

And show you damnation

Because you deserve

To be executed

For playing with my naivety

And for crushing my conscience

In the name of love

You've made me a reaper

And it's time

To slay your ruined soul

And shove you back

With the devil

-Jessa

In the distance I hear the echoes of Children's laughter.

Brings me back to a happy ever after. Jump roping with the girls on the block,

Being chased by boys throwing rocks. Hide and seek will they ever find me?

I was the best at that game,

Rarely ever to be seen.

Oh yes! Time for a cool break.

I hear the melody from the ice cream Truck.

Hurry up,

He leaves if your to late.

I love the gum ball eyed ice creams and The famous pop rocks!

Now back to more outside play,

Not much screen time those days.

Double Dutch was not my thing,

To many ropes whipping at me.

Hop scotch was the key,

A way to win lots of yummy candy.

Baseball in the park;

Flashlight tag in the dark.

Drive in theaters were the best!

Do those even still exist?

I can never forget the feeling;

Giggling while writing a love poem to my First crush.

Not realizing this was the beginning of The love rush.

Happiness;

I find in my childhood.

Though going back I never could.

Now it's my children's turn to be happy And carefree;

Luckily they choose to share it through Their innocent eyes with me. S.M.~2016

She may not live in a castle

She may not have a throne

She may not have a crown

And not even the amazing clothes.

But she's still a queen

Among those who know her.

She's the queen of their hearts

Touching their souls.

She's a queen

For her massive family

Who love and support.

And she'll always be a queen

With a heart of gold.

Your fingers

Linger

Just a little

Longer and

Enough

As you hold

My face in

Your hands and

Your eyes

Are locked on

Mine

Leaving me

Shuddering

Long after

You are gone.

In the cast off rays of the July sun. The butterflies dance in the envy of the mosquitos prick and the winds sweep clear across the treetops. Ripples through the leaves echoing back through the ages to the beginning of time before time began. Look out upon the crest of the foothills. Lifting up from the forest and the flattened fields. The sounds of the distant sparrow rising up through the coming heat. The crow caws and the rooster crows and the wings of dawn reach out to smother the cloak of night. Daylight spreads graciously across the soils of the earth and I am earth bound once more.

Drawn towards you

With unknown reasons

I see the reflection of myself

In your eyes

I'm not the same woman

I've seen before

For you've healed

The pain inside

With your presence

It's like I'm being reborn

To breathe another life

And it's like

You live inside me

When constantly your image

It's all I see inside my mind

If this is love....

Then I'll be gladly to endure

The sweet torture of missing you

For you've seen me

Like no other

The damage and the wound

And now

I'm dancing freely in the rain

Because with you......

There would be much passion

To live in

-Jess