The place I always belonged.

The place where I fit.

The place where my soul can blossom.

The place where my heart can be at peace.

The place where I can do the things I've always dreamed of.

The place where my life will be what I've always wanted it to be.

The final piece to the puzzle To the reparations in my life.

The place I must go.

the sacred ground of my soul you can find me there.

I'll be waiting for you with love in my heart.

I will take all of your pain away

feel as if you were in heaven it self.

peace at last..........

I don't know how to write in Nor did I claim that I do.I don't read much. got great comprehension but don't know how to apply it.just saying what needs to be sad For sanity sake I suppose.not able to meet any standard because there is no standard for what I write.few people can relate with what an insane man says .sometimes I feel like I'm the only sane person in the world.I find my own mind to be a maze that I get lost in sometimes.seeming to forget just about everything all the time other than what's important like my children and wife and my business.always trying to squeeze out insanity.wanting to fit in something that's not in Insane. not to listen two what's in my head and do what I know is right.

this is giving me a headache I'm going to go whack off.

I will spend the rest of my life apologizing for my excess of deplorable personality.it's kind of like when you're growing up when you get your first taste of spicy food you hate it immediately.Then you grow up and you can't get enough of it right........????????

Or the first time you smell your own fart and you hate it you can't believe how bad farts smell and then when you grow older you start to love the smell....... of your own farts?

I guess in this wonderful and untainted expression of literature you have to take the good with the bad and I think we both know which one this literature is that I'm writing.

but just between you and me I don't really care what you think.

I never knew how much of an asshole I could be until I started writing.

We all do our best to believe in human nature you may question what it is in fact that you are believing in. so we all have this vision of some utopian peace place that somehow is going to be derived through activists protests and acting like hippies.True human nature is to kill and conquer and be self destructive and destructive to others.history shows that to be true.people's True nature is to take advantage of the good natured even someone that thinks they have morals will find themselves in that position to take advantage of someone with good intentions attempting to ignore what they're actually doing or pretending they don't realize what they did but they know exactly what they're doing.You can only try to be enlightened in the face of humanity's true nature and at that point by sticking to what you believe in you will see the a few in good nature will surface in your life will they be far and few between be Grateful there is any at all on this planet and be humbled in this enlightenment.

enjoying my infants ignorant bliss of life not knowing what comes in the future what lies ahead what worries are inherent in and of that he has been born and a part of his father's life now only joy and smiles laughter and love As father sits worrying everyday is a week every minute every second for every reason but it's all for the best reason there could be.the meaning of life right there in your hands and the relief given threw a untainted heart to his father's heavy heart all said and done it's worth every second every minute here there everywhere crying or laughing the true gift of the meaning of life some of the best things in life are free.

He always tried to do what he thought was best even when sometimes it seems like he was going to the dark side he was still able to maintain a higher level of honesty dignity and quality in what he did.

sometimes billy realized people would actually see this as a weakness or an opportunity to do the opposite back to him it seemed almost like they thought it was an opportunity to treat someone good poorly almost like it was something they enjoyed in a sick sort of way.

one day Billy was so tired of this problem and he started doing the same thing they were doing and didn't adhered to the things that Took him so many good places in this life and left him sleeping good every night.

so for the next year he would spend his time not giving a shit being thoughtless unkind rude inconsiderate having no more moral values then a praying mantis.

Billy started to realize his life started going downhill and he started to not sleep well not feel good about himself not be happy with any of the results That came from the way he treated others. all all those people still saw this as a weakness we're still doing the same thing regardless of how he acted

that point He came to the realization it didn't matter how he acted to others but only to himself because the way he treated people only reflected in is life and only reflected slightly in other peoples lives if At all.

unfortunately once he went down that path it was much more difficult to come back however it was so terribly easy to follow the wrong path coming back took so much time and so much effort Billy wasn't able to return.

Billy spent the rest of these days thinking about how much better it was when he stuck to his guns and had good morals more values slept well and was well liked by others. no longer with that day return for Billy but he often sat in coffee shop windows thinking about how it was before wallowing in his failure to be the person he thought he should be and do the things he thought were the right thing to do .whenever he had the chance and he saw someone changing he let them know not to do it because they may not be able to return.

pathetic ungrateful morbid sad for no good reason just shut the fuck up and be grateful you weren't born as an aunt you silver spoon mother fucker. I don't care of your mom spends most of her time up against walls with sailors and your dad is a mass murderer that's all the more reason for you to be more enlightened and be the opposite of whatever they did as i jam this silver spoon the reality up your ass I hope you have the realization that if even you're lucky enough to live for one minute or even 1 second on this planet in this reality... in this multiverse.... be grateful even if you were only suffering for the uunbelievable great fortune to even be alive for one second you stupid fuck and by the way Happy Thanksgiving from the philosopher!!!!!!!