rip my heart in 2,

give one half to you,

not really tho,

cus.

I'd kiss you right now on the cheek,

if I could,

guess i'll blow you one instead,

hope you understand,

cus,

i didn't mean what i said and said and said.

I sneaked over to the cooler and grabbed a few balloons to hide,--had to be prepared for when the stalk ran out--and chilled by the south door steps, waiting for something to happen so no one could be looking at me. Suddenly, "Swoosh" followed with giggles and familiar laughs, Nate had dumped a bucket of water on JZ and now was running. I hid my balloons and stood next to Bella as JZ got his revenge and joined us. JZ started, So I finished...""I can't believe you got an audio book of it!" JZ had gotten an audio book of one of Bella's forbidden books. "Yeah and I..." JZ looked at the ground and started again "Yeah I finished it and I even..." "Be quiet," I said, knowing he would say something stupid, " Sooo Bella, could you tell me the name of that book?" I lifted an eyebrow. "No!" I laughed and walked over to the group as Jordie, our youth group leader, started telling us that we would be starting with Shot put.

Finally it was time for the fight and I would reign. Ha ha ha.

I hid behind the stairs and waited for the exact right moment. Suddenly JZ was in front of me holding a bucket of water, ready to dump it on my head, "HEY!!!" I yelled at I ran from him stopping just before the sidewalk, " Get away from me!"

"Uh, uh, uh" he said just before getting me soaking wet, I could smell it too, ugh, and even worse I got a little in my mouth and it reminded me of a water bottle left out side to long, talk about grossss, he is NOT getting away with this!!! I ran to the cooler to grab a few balloons. One dropping on my feet with a splash.

I chased after JZ and nailed him in the back of his neck. Ha Ha. I reign.

Soon, after we got medals with candy, of course, I found myself waving to Bella, so excited for the next youth group event that would celebrate the sun and being outside.

pulled over and tried to hold back, I hopped out of the car and puked behind a reddish colored rock. ugh I tried to keep my mind off the rest of the drive home and turned the radio to a different station. Luckily I made it home without any more...feelings-the word stings my tongue--but after getting home.....

well,

that's a different story.

I walked into the cafeteria--which was unusually quiet, for my grade at least--and scanned for my friends, a painful expression crossing my face as I met my ex best friends eyes, I quickly darted my attention to the other side of the room where I say Felicia and Darick, at least I know they want me there as much as I do.

Soon we were finding our classes and opening our lockers. Sadie was in 5/6 of my classes. New friend? I guess? She didn't want to be the only freshmen girl in Spanish.

Finally on the bus we go.....

I don't feel about anything...except maybe complaining, that doesn't count though, right?

Anyway.....

I'm not really super interested in anything, I like basketball, reading is a good time taker, writings cool too. I like to orginize things, but can you really geek out about orginizing?

Yeah... there are attractive actors...I like music....Doctor Who...is interesting. I'm a Christian, but I don't geek out about the good news or gospel....am I supposed to? Who knows.(God knows.)

I like working at the food pantry its really fun sometimes some of the people who volunteer with the court are attractive, I love how they all have stories even if there not about good things, and I like to help the people there, but I'm still new if I think about it; I can't know to much.

I like magazines. Brio. The random 2018 mags I have in my room of really old news I like to read and cut our of sometimes. Who cares if some wrestling guy had to fake a death now though? Like seriously...

I like music. I have Klove on all the time. Actually I love music. But geek out about it??

............................................................................................................................................

Yeah...

I don't "geek out" about anything.

That feeling when you say you can be friends, but here you are watching everything from the side lines, finding out from "them" because its only been 2 weeks but they've moved on and found another already, you think your weird because you haven't. You think you're weird because before "they" told you you were still dreaming that you could go back, or do it again, but it would be fine. But you lost, and now..."were dating,"...its over...for us.