Loving you was like staying awake till 4 am

To see a meteor shower

Only to find a sky full of clouds

Loving you was like finding your path

And then turning around in fear and doubt

Loving you was like a promise

That was never kept

A dream that was never lived

But only dreamt

A question without a reply

I love you still

And I’ll never know why

Gun fires

gun shot unheard

self inflicted pain

I bleed alone.

Crimson floors

can’t be scrubbed

leaving evidence

I once existed.

I woke up this morning

I was no longer part of you

I thought we were stitched

together in tangles of silk

spider webbed forever

in intricate patterns

beginning but

never ending.

Gossamer threads -

a creation of my mind

the ghost of your body

was never there

to begin with -

a fleeting fantasy

blowing in the wind

Invisible silhouette