Left Out
Everyday it’s the same.
I’m always living in your shadow.
Every night I see the light
streaming out from underneath your door.
I hear the laughs,
I see the smiles,
and I’ve never once joined in.
I guess my invitation got lost in the mail.
But did you know that
it stings me
whenever I’m rejected?
Did you know that
it hurts me
when laughing eyes turn cold when I walk in?
I just want to join in.
Violence and Peace
There is a lion in me
with teeth like swords
and a roar like a hurricane.
It fights like a fire,
and stings like a whip on the back.
It lives in my mind
and makes me a weapon.
I wish I was strong enough to break free.
There is a doe in me
with eyes like an X-ray machine,
with compassion like no equal.
It is silent like a rolling fog,
and is welcoming like a summer breeze.
It lives in my heart
and makes me understanding.
I wish it could fight the lion.
Refugee
I sit in terror
listening to shells
that drop from the sky
and shatter the earth.
I see the world
I once loved
broken and dead,
killed by the soldiers.
I cannot stay here
any longer.
I have to leave.
But how can I leave
my country,
my home?
I cannot leave.
I mustn’t leave.
Every day
the fighting gets closer.
I hear missiles
and tanks
and screams
and guns.
I see people I know
lying dead on the streets
in pools of blood,
with bulletholes in their chests.
I stay in hiding
in order to stay alive,
but hundreds of others
have been murdered.
For what?
Why do the shells
fall from the sky
turning once-loved
homes into nothing more
than rubble?
Why must I hide
from the soldiers each day,
waiting for safety
I fear never will come?
I have given up hope
that this ever will end.
I know I must leave,
but I cannot leave
my country,
my home.
Dear me
Dear me,
There are so many questions I need to have answered, and I don't know where to begin. What is the world like where you are from? Is everyone still so wrapped up in the technology that only a choice few take time to even read? Do people still keep secrets from those they are closest to, or has humanity started to bring back a sense of morality? I fear for what the future may bring, but always hope for the best. However, I cannot deny that I fear I may have changed, too. When you are living, what am I like? Do I hold on to my beliefs, or do I abandon all I've ever learned? Am I still as carefree as I am now, or have I for once believed what people say about me to be true? Have I been as kind as I hope I have? If not, where did I go wrong? I need to know exactly how to fix me if I leave the me I am now. So, me, I have one more question.
Who am I?
Hate
Hate.
All that comes comes to mind is how much I hate that word.
One word alone can destroy so much,
and I hate it.
People don't realize the weight of the word,
so they throw it around
and damage others.
"I hate you. I hate this."
I hate how that word works.
It tears things down whenever it's used,
and I hate the word for it.
I think sometimes I am meant to be more.
More than I am, and more than I want to be.
I am who I am.
Life weighs different amounts for each person, bearing down on us.
Day after day, I carry a thousand pounds.
I’m tired of breaking my back.
Secrets are everywhere and it is so hard to hold on to my sanity.
If life is so difficult, wouldn’t it be better to just let go?
I think I’ll let go.
A Dying Heart
There was a girl I knew
Who was beautiful and smart
But also insecure.
You could tell her to her face
That she meant the world to you
And she would claim that wasn't true,
Believing that the world would be better off
Without her.
The girl only went on because of
Her family, knowing that if she left
It would destroy them.
And so she forced herself to live
Although her heart longed to die.
The Philosopher’s Questions
Has one ever thought about our dreams,
And what we call reality?
Could it be that life's a dream,
And dreams are our reality?
And when's life course on earth is run,
Will we return to some god above?
Does heaven exist in the stars of our sun,
Or will earth enclose us 'til time is done?