I thought

I was okay.

Turns out,

I forget

What okay

Is when

You're not

Beside me.

Strangers. To each other and to ourselves … That’s all we are. Nothing more and certainly nothing less. Strangers with no original ideas and no reason to question anything that has been or will be. To us, the past is not something to be learned from and the future is so far from grasp, that the present is all that matters. No forethought, only hindsight. Ignorance is our defining quality.

You can't take back that moment

Can't take back any time

Regret is a backward mountain

Steep slopes I try to climb

I'm halfway to my destination

Shrouded within parts unknown

I feel blinded by mediocrities

My heart has turned to stone

Looking for a glimmer

Of a light to feed my soul

To keep me moving, keep me believing

I have any control

You are my dream

but not my reality 

I don't know why 

I waste my time

in my imagination

when my world 

before me is so fine

but never enough

when the idea of you 

exists between my ears

yet you could be 

right in front of me.