roses
she made a world out of sunlit coffee cups and color-stained window pane
an outsider lost in roads without dead ends under the silence of the night
i knelt before her castle walls as my city drowned in rivers of endless rain
she wanted roses in a world of black and white, her smile slitting my vein,
painting with blood, i watched as he gave her one fabricated by kryptonite
she made a world out of sunlit coffee cups and color-stained window pane
withered petals dripping in cold blood, thorns kissed my wrists in a chain
draining me of my sins, a labyrinth with no escape in this unceasing fight
i knelt before her castle walls as my city drowned in rivers of endless rain
red as roses and blood, my heart sank amidst shadows like a paper plane
her perfume his cologne blended in her breath in the middle of the night
she made a world out of sunlit coffee cups and color-stained window pane
torn apart the nectary petals of a rose, poetry’s equivalence to going insane
hearts don’t bloom in the dark, no world beyond the universe of her light
i knelt before her castle walls as my city drowned in rivers of endless rain
her voice cutting my skin, i felt everything in the absence of unruly pain
buried under a field of thorny roses, i don’t think i’ll make it out tonight
she made a world out of sunlit coffee cups and color-stained window pane
i knelt before her castle walls as my city drowned in rivers of endless rain
- deathetix
Peace of Mind
Do you know what it means to live without peace of mind? No, you don't.
Someone without peace of mind isn't living, is just existing. A person without peace of mind wakes up every morning and wants to run as far and as fast as possible to get away from the one person she can't stand but it doesn't matter how far or how fast she runs because she's always there.
Do you know what a real friend is? A real friend is someone who stands by your side when life knocks you so hard on your ass that you can't stand on your own two feet.
He wasn't a real friend or a best friend. He was a potential new friend.
He was my friend when I wasn't capable of being a friend. That gave me peace of mind at a time when I didn't think I would EVER have peace of mind again. I wanted to be a real friend. I wanted to be worthy of having a real friend. I never put effort into my friendships before but with this person I do.
Today, I have peace of mind, a real friend and a best friend.