I don’t get a thank you
I'm always here for everyone and not me do I get a thank you no I do not. I treat everyone with respect and nobody notices how i'm nicer than I should be. People only notice when I'm arguing with them or lashing out. I give more than 2 chances and nobody cares how i'm getting hurt by doing it. Why can't I have a thank you. I just want a day when people notice me and how much effort i put into everything. if i died today would they notice me. Can I get a thank you for forgiving everyone, even the people are why I am so broken, can I get a thank you for keeping my mouth shut when what I was gonna say needed said, for treating everyone with respect even if they don't deserve it, even the ones who made me broken, who taunted me every single day. I thank everyone can I just get a f**king thank you. I'm here why cant you see me. Heres a thank you to you, thank for breaking me, for making me feel like ill never be loved, to make me feel like i'm ugly, for not paying attention to why I act the way I do, for judging me, for taking advantage of me, for ruining me, Thanks, then I deserve one.
grocery store
'thanks for all your help,'
she offers a smile as she grabs her bags,
turns toward the door.
she's clumsy as she opens it,
brow creased, you watch her leave.
she left some coffee beans.
you miss her for a week
then she's back with her sweet smile,
you help her collect her things.
'thank you so much'
in a rush, she grabs her bags and turns.
she's gone, leaves some limes.
the next week she's tired
you hand her the bags, she smiles at you.
she's careful not to leave a thing.
she's back again,
grabs quickly, hands you extra cash.
gives a weak smile, small thanks.
on the next week she visits
you help her take the bags to the car
nothing stays behind.
she's not in the next week.
you really can't help but wonder.
your coworkers whisper.
you notice her absence
less and less as weeks pass,
but often you see her
in a sweet smile,
or polite thanks, in forgotten items
you thank her.
you apologize to her.