finding yourself

underwater

forced to hold a breath

you don't remember taking

gnawing, mounting

the desire to exhale

to let the water rush in

if only to stop you from

coveting

the air above

Worry is staying up late, waiting for the person you care most about to text you

Worry is that sinking feeling in your stomach that something is wrong

Worry is walking out into a dark cold night, desperate for answers

Worry is the vibration of your phone when you finally receive that message five hours later

Worry is feeling physically sick with tears in your eyes as you read "I'm okay."

Worry is the fear of him lying because even if something was wrong he'd never say

Worry is realizing that you are helpless to him, no matter how badly you want to do something

Worry is realizing you're worthless

The pain was real as the knife repeatedly stabbed me in the back. Oh Julius Caesar how you must have suffered as I do now. Et Tu Brutus your final words. Why you brutal anxiety? why do you plague me so? I hear the train coming now and I'm too weak to stand. I guess lifelife ends with a light at the end of a dark tunnel. This is the way the world ends in a bloody train wreck.

I really want to love you

to tell you how i feel

to let words just cascade out my lips

where they have been barricaded behind the tallest dam

of self-consciousness

since I met you;

But I worry

its all too much

and I feel

as though I am a looking glass and you can see right through me

because vocalizing my feelings

will make it all too real;

And I'd like to think of my self as an adversary

or a fighter

but right now I am not

and I can't leave myself vulnerable

to rejection and change

But I am losing time to the thief of opportunity

and I feel you slipping away

and this worries me also;

Was it something I said?

or something I didn't say?

I really want to love you

but I can't yet tell you how I feel

I only hope tomorrow

won't be too late

Worry kills

Bit by bit

Unforgotten words of past

Cruel present

Frightening future

They won't let you sleep

Until you die

Hopeless

The scenarios drift through my head,

and the urge to vomit comes on strong,

they all end with them dead,

for I have been away too long.

The tears fall from my eyes,

as I deceive myself to hope,

everything I thought were lies,

refusing to know how to cope.

I brush away the tears,

shake off the pain,

but its been years,

and all of it was rain.

I ignore the warnings in my head,

but walk in to find them dead.

Worry

Is a tragedy that we only imagine

Until we are relived of our curiosity

Our imaginations are often worse than reality

So our minds claw at possibilities of the truth

And this could drive a man mad if left alone

The fear that you will fail

The fear of rejection

The fear of leaping over the rail

Into unknown land

Afraid that when the ship sails

You'll wish you had

Vulnerability

Keeps us afraid of the result

Worry brings us to a halt

Making a decision?

Thoughtfully considered

Mistakes crushing our ambition

Over-analyzed?

Of course it is

Faith keeps you alive

Living and not just existing

Hoping it works out

Getting rid of all doubt

And in the end we say

"I don't know what I was so worried about,"

Devastating it is

as panic it spreads

senses go numb

as, coordination fails

Yes, you guessed it right

I am taking of worry

or Fear it is said..

As simple it spells

raised to infinity

it threatens..

Excruciating it is

ferocious it makes you feel

as a cold blooded murdered

ruthlessly it kills..!

Drishti