He mourned

the loss of his beloved for so long--

he became Grief itself.

#littlewhitenote

Jcv2016

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I can smell summer in your hair 

Organic 

Like soil newly unearthed 

By the rains 

Your skin 

Humid 

Slick from playing in the clouds too long

That sank too low 

Pushed by the breeze 

Off the coast 

Were you alone?

Your eyes 

Still flicker with a firefly's dance 

Did I ever have a chance 

To compete with Summer's romance 

I'll share you 

I'll share you with the sun 

And kiss your skin 

I'll share you with the ocean 

To soothe your heart again

And I'll wrap around your body 

With the wind 

I woke up this morning

I was no longer part of you

I thought we were stitched

together in tangles of silk

spider webbed forever

in intricate patterns

beginning but

never ending.

Gossamer threads -

a creation of my mind

the ghost of your body

was never there

to begin with -

a fleeting fantasy

blowing in the wind

Invisible silhouette

"I still am lost. Everything is pulling against my concentration. "

"Loud and clear to an inner ear and place where there is no self only calm."

"I must end it. There's no hope left.  I'll be at peace."

"We had a death pact and I must keep my end of the bargain...bury me next to my baby. Bury me in my leather jacket. Jeans and motorcycle boots."

"The sadness will last forever"

"I am done with that.  Time to go. "

"I feel certain I'm going mad again..."

"Ill be at your altar. Please keep going. "

Seventeen

grains

there 

have

been

since

you

began

to

write.

Eight

more

and

the

sands

run

out. 

My heart contains a universe in words I cannot read.

I have plenty of good ideas, but simply can't proceed.

Until I find the words, my song is but a hum.

Until I find the words, my poetry is dumb.

Though I am old

Fuddled and grumpy

My mind is versatile

Compressed and elastic

Though I am proud

Haughty and salty

My mouth is cold

Dormant and active

Though I have lost

Challenges and battles

My will is strong

Indomitable and stoic

Though I am broke

Vagrant and hungry

My eyes are fixed

Ever faithful and grateful

Though I am weak

Frustrated and helpless

My smile is rich

Hopeful and endless

Though I am...

Though I...

Though I am nothing

God makes me something