Slipping into the Dark
You are a new world of knowledge. I can't believe I never made you an option.
You've opened my eyes to a different kind of light. You've made me feel things and see things in technicolor. Lonely times are no longer lonely. I don't need anyone else because I have you. I have you all to myself. No one knows.
But. You're taking something from me. Not the cliche of taking my time and energy, but my innocence.
You didn't tell me that would be the price!
I never made a deal with you. Or at least, I don't think I did, did I?
You're taking, and taking, and now I wish I'd never met you, never sought you out.
I just needed to not be alone anymore, but now, I'm numb.
Mama said, "once you let the beast out, there's no caging it back".
What, then, am I supposed to do?
What have you done to me?!
Truth is harsh.
Maybe it would be easier if it were dipped in vanilla ice cream and wrapped in cotton candy. So sweet.
The ones who have never hidden their ruthlessness being chastised by the ones who hide under a cloak of civility and courtesy.
Remember this: things aren't always as they appear.
Uncles and Aunts
Leaving Church after service one day, a friend of mine and I are discussing the fact that my Uncle's wife is having a baby soon.
While exchanging stories, I make a statement with complete seriousness, and for about 10-20 seconds, my friend Lazham is laughing hilariously.
I don't get it until he repeats it back to me. Turns out I said:
"Don't know if it's a girl or a boy and don't care. I just can't wait to see if I'll be an aunt or an uncle"
I guess I was extremely excited because I'm pretty sure I'm female.
Why Am I Here?
I'm starting to feel like I'm made for more than this. A lot more. I did my jobs well; holding down two jobs, one after the other was no small feat. I held my owner's water, then I held his fruit smoothies until, one night, I fell off the counter and started leaking everywhere.
Now I'm here, homeless for the first time.
"Ow!" I cry out as I feel a painful depression on my back.
Someone just stepped on me, forcing the air out of me.
Can these drones not NOT see me?
I hear a low screeching sound. The garbage man is here.
Yay! I think, I might get a new job today.
It is then I remember: my previous boss did not put me in recycling.
I'm going to the landfill.
Standing in front of the department two weeks into first year registration at the university, I felt an itch on the back of my neck. The type you get when there's a sniper out for you. Just said that because that's what they say in the movies. I turned slightly to the left and there she was; the lady in green, or was it blue, storming towards me and my course mate. But she wasn't angry. She wore her big smile like a lighthouse's beacon. "Hi", she said, "Please where is the department of that and that". well, not that and that precisely but I cant quite remember now. Then, before we could answer, she added, "I want to know what the process for registration is". That got my brain going. I was so sorry that she had come late and I said as much. It was a Friday so we told her to come back the next week and find out but we pointed out that she was late. Of course she already knew but, realizing that you were earlier that someone else in first year, you kinda had the edge. During the weekend, I totally forgot the whole incident, forgot we had exchanged numbers and names until I got the call on Monday confirming she had come to school. By the way, the lady became my best friend. And still is, not that she stopped being that. Or am i confusing myself
Brittle and chilled
Why do I even care
About all the men I killed
And all my sins laid bare
I traipse through the falling snow
Where nothing more will grow
And I say to myself