As a seventeen year old boy, Charlie Jackson expected his life to be full of adolescent fun. Never did he suspect that anything tremendouly devastating would happen to him. He was raised in a quite wealthy family, and was given lots of freedom to experience life as he pleased.
Unfortunately, as you probably concocted a prediction from the first couple of sentences, something went wrong. I cannot say that he went into this problem unknowingly, because that would be somewhat false, but I can tell you he was not expecting things to turn out this way.
On a chilly November night, right after a football game in which Charlie scored a couple touchdowns at, he made love to a fifteen year old girl in the locker room. Of course he knew it was not the best place nor time to, but what happened did.
Three months later, Rose Keller, the fifteen year old freshman, went to his house.
"What's up?" Charlie said, opening the door.
"We need to talk." she frowned.
As she explained to him and his parents the quite unfortunate situation she was in, Charlie could feel his heart pounding in his chest with fear. His parents were in tears with anger and disappointment.
"I can't take care of the baby. You need to. If you don't, my parents will file a case against you and they will destroy you and your family." she spoke as if she was playing a recording from her parents through her mouth.
A couple minutes later, she left the house with her head low and her heart lower. She did not feel affection or love for the baby, but pure hate, as it was produced partly by a boy she thought took advantage of her.
The next couple of months were a blur. She went to her doctor's appointments and he tried to ignore the fact that his baby was coming and continued improving on football.
Mid- August, right before the fall semester started again, Charlie got a phone call from Rose's mother saying that she was going into labor. He didn't care.
A week later, Rose bought the beautiful baby girl home. She kissed her cheek, and left.
He hired a nanny to take care of the baby all day when he was at school. Every single day was awkward. Everybody would stare and talk about how he was irresponsible and a failure.
He still had not named her, and he didn't want to. He did not listen to his parents when they would ask him to pay attention to her, and show her love.
At about 8 o'clock one day, she started crying hysterically in her crib. The nanny was trying to soothe her, but nothing seemed to be working. Charlie was in his room at the time studying for a test he had the next day. He kept listening for the wails to stop, but they didn't. He tried to block out the noise, but it kept bothering him. Angrily, he stood up and stormed to the nursery.
"Julie, what the hell? I can't even listen to myself think!" he shouted.
"I'm sorry sir. She won't keep quiet. I tried picking her up, but she won't stop." she humbly said.
He thought to himself for a minute. Her skin was like caramel, and her hair was beautiful brown curls, just like his. She had chubby cheeks and short plumpy limbs, which Charlie always thought was funny and cute.
"Give her to me." he said. The nanny handed the baby to Charlie. He rocked her in his arms for a few moments, and her cries eventually stopped. The nanny stared in astonishment, as this was the first time he had touched her since she was born.
"Well?" he snapped. "You can leave."
She left the room. He sat in a rocking chair on the other side of the room and held the baby to his chest.
"You're actually not that bad. I can't wait till you can catch a football. Do babies even understand us? You know, because of you, everyone stopped talking to me at school. I don't even have friends anymore. Even the football coach keeps asking me if I knocked up anymore girls." She looked up and him and sucked her thumb. He smiled back.
"You're adorable man. I always thought babies were kinda gross. All they do is poop and stuff." he laughed. She sneezed, and it made him laugh even more. Watching babies sneeze is hilarious.
She placed her head back on his chest, and he could feel her heart beat on his own skin.
"Your mom is named after a flower. I think it's a little weird, but she was really hot, so I didn't say no. Wouldn't it be cool if I named you after a flower too? Like Daisy or something? Okay, wait. Daisy Duck. So no."
He thought about it for a while.
"What about Jasmine? It sounds exotic and pretty, just like you." he touched her nose. She was asleep, so he didn't know if she liked that or not.
"Oh well, I like Jasmine, so that's your name I guess."
He fell asleep in the chair with his baby on his chest, and he finally felt relief.
Creation out of Chaos
We all predict our next movement, sometimes it is deliberate, sometimes it is unconscious. We have some sort of idea of what will happen ten years from now, or at least that’s how we want it to go. Curveballs and detours occur, but our minds are usually set to end up in a certain destination.
They say things happen for reason. The world is chaotic in our eyes, but looking at the big picture, the larger-scaled perspective, it could make sense to another being. As humans, we don’t always understand events around us. Creation of explanations is a mechanism made by humans all the time. We base it off of science or just pure belief. Either way, those thoughts inspire us to make certain decisions in our lives.
I was running up a hill, feeling the cold wind burn on my cheeks, my skin pale. My feet thudded loudly against the ground and the constant fear of tripping on the slick tar of the road was fresh like a wound in my mind. Exactly what I was running from, I still don’t know till this day, but I could feel it getting closer to me, even if I could not see it. An ear-piercing screech echoed into my bones, sending waves of horror through my blood. Something took a breathe on my left shoulder. It was cold, like a sudden burst of AC air, chilling my bones.
I didn’t want to turn around and look. I didn’t want to face what could possibly be the end of my life. I was scared, my pulse was skyrocketing. It is going to be okay, I told myself. It is okay. Everything disappeared. The cold was gone, the hill was gone, It was gone.
Nightmares are something i’ve tackled with for a very long time. They are usually very similar to this one, the situations varying. Since as long as I can remember, i’ve awaken with my skin damp with sweat, and my heart thudding in my chest.
I sat in my bed for a few moments. I thought about everything that my brain had conjured up and I tried to breathe. Tears flowed down my face and made my eyes sting.
This is one of those things that just happened to occur on the right time, on the right day, at the right place.
I looked at my nightstand. A brush and a sketchbook were lying there because my sister left her things in my room. I cannot explain this, but a gut instinct told me to paint. I picked up the brush, and maneuvered it.
The fear in my head, and the terror in my heart traveled down my shoulders, through my elbows, and the energy released itself into my brush. I was in control, which was not the case in my dreams. I had the power to create something beautiful out of something so dreadful.
I still have this piece. It isn’t something specific, because I wasn’t really thinking about what I was drawing. Streaks of ultramarine blue, slate gray, and eggshell white danced gracefully on the thick watercolor paper.
I drew circles, squares, squiggly lines and blobs using a swift hand. I was still crying, but I wasn’t scared anymore.
If you find a way to control yourself in situations, things are eventually going to be okay. That experience taught me how to have power over myself. Even if it is as simple as nightmares, facing the problem is the best possible solution.
I would have never started painting or drawing if it wasn’t for that day. I wouldn’t have started selling my art online. A bad dream helped me determine what I wanted to do with my future.
It is important to let your emotions and thoughts go in a safe and reasonable way. Learning how to cope with my own mind was the best possible thing I have achieved in my entire life.
Stubbing Your Toe
You’re walking quickly to the kitchen to grab some cereal, about to watching the new Orange Is The New Black season.
You don’t open your bedroom door far enough, and in your haste, your beloved pinkie toe is smashed against the side of the door.
Immediate pain runs through your entire foot. You stand there, in shock wondering, why in the world you did that to yourself.
Why must you feel this pain?
JANELLE GUNA, pessimistic, smart, and wealthy, with a disrupted home and short-tempered personality seemed to portray a hate that drove everyone and everything away from her; and had lived nearly sixteen years, whatever poor creature in her path destroyed by her vicious wrath.
Jane Austen, the best author to exist. Inspired straight from Emma.