Some days I don’t feel anything at all. I can’t think, I can’t speak, I can only breathe.

Just barely.

My heart has words that my mind cannot gather for my mouth to speak.

I don’t really know why but these are my blank spaces. The white between the blue of my pages.

When the pain silently crafts my next work of art...

-L.B.-

I'm sitting in an old bar that is quite hidden from the public eye, I guess you actually have to know people or the bar to actually be here. Me, I accidentally found it and fell in love with the place. I have been coming here every day for two months. why? well as much as I like the smell of liquor and old cigarette, it’s not that. nor is it how peaceful it is, ok that is one factor but the real reason is, I seen this goddess with the most beautiful brown eyes I have ever seen, and her smile lights this world up better than the sun. I don’t have the confidence to actually go talk to her and it’s not like she has even noticed me, why would she? I sit in the same hidden booth everyday reading my book and drinking coffee. when I read I tend to lose track of time and my surroundings become none existent. that is what has happened right now until a napkin has blocked my view and I frown as I look up to see who would do such a thing, but as I look up I’m met with beautiful brown eyes and a smile so bright. I forget what I was going to say until she points to my book and I look at it. it’s not my book she was pointing at, it was a folded-up napkin. that’s right, I thought to myself and I look back up to ask what the go was but she had already walked away, I frown again but soon smile as the thought 'she noticed me'. my smile is soon gone and replaced with confused frown, again. the note read "get out now while you still can." I bite my lip scared of what this meant. while I was trying to work out what she meant, I was too late. screaming started and then gun fires, it all happened to quick to realize what was going on. this must be a place where bad things happen, that’s why it’s so quiet. I grab my bag ready to run, when I see her brown locks behind an upturn table. I see a gun pointed at the table and I run, run over and push her out of the road. I scream as I get hit in the right shoulder and fall to the ground. I don’t remember much after that, just her worried face hovering over mine as she pushes on my wound telling me 'you should have left'. that’s all I remember until I woke up in the hospital.

when I wake I slowly open my eyes and groan in pain "ohh god that hurts" I groan to myself "good that’s what you get for not listening." I jump and squeal not realizing someone else was here with me. I look to my right and I see her, she’s a mess but a beautiful mess. I open and close my mouth a few times before I smile and say "you’re alive" she smiles slightly and shakes her head as she gets up and walks over to me " thanks to you I’m alive" she leans down and kisses my cheek. I blush and shrug my shoulders and hiss in pain, she chuckles and says "yeah that’s going to hurt for a while there, Hero" I smile and shake my head "I’m no hero just Raven." I say simply "well raven you saved my life so you are a hero......my hero" she says softly "I’m Adriana, but most call me Addi." she holds her hand out for me to shake, so I shake it "Its a pleasure to meet you Addi" I say honestly. she smirks at me and lucky I’m in bed Because she made my knees week "pleasure is all mine."