Damaged Goods

It's not about self-esteem

I have none

I gave it up

When I stormed out the door

And left you

Alone

And hurting

Without so much as an

"I'm sorry"

For what I did

It's not about self-respect

I have none

I gave it up

When I opened my mouth

And accused you

Of such terrible things

Without evidence

Because I was insecure

And it hurt

Me

To think they might

Be true

It was selfish

Of me

For I know that you are not

That kind of man

I see it now

As I should have

Then

And I am crawling back

To you

On my hands and knees

Not asking for

Forgiveness

Of my transgressions

Only understanding

Is it too much

To even hope for that?

#crawlingback #poetry