Depression

Depression is the worst feeling you could feel and you cannot stop it. People say you must get over it and grow from it but you can only go numb to it. It will never leave you, you will always be stuck with that feeling in your stomach or that thought in the back of your head. Depression makes you hate who you are, it makes you feel unnormal. At times you might feel like you are literally going insane and each outburst gets worse. But slowly you grow farther and farther from who you once were. The pain grows more and you no longer feel human. You feel like you are your own being and will never fit in with anyone else. All you want is to feel normal but it will never happen. You will only continue to hate yourself more. The people who once loved you will start to hate you and grow farther apart from you because of how much you will change.

Many people turn to drugs or alcohol to try to numb this horrible feeling; this only makes it worse for yourself. You turn into a addict on your first try. That first “high” and your hooked. This is the best you have ever felt in your life. You want to feel this way all the time. So you continue to use and you start to rely on it to feel happy or to feel normal. You are slowly killing yourself; the drugs or alcohol are only making it worse for you. When you finally realize this you are already hooked and you hate yourself even more for letting it get this far. So you just resorte back to it. The cycle will never end. You are never going to be happy again.