i unclasped my head like a purse and tipped it out onto my lap. i sifted through all the dark things that i've grown weary of. i picked out the pretty, shiny things. i even found that after some rubbing, the dark rusty things could also be pretty and shiny.
i made a little pile next to me of the reasons that this year i'm excited for summer. i had to scrub quite hard at these ones, but when they sparkled, i was almost blinded.
i picked through all the films i'm going to be able to watch with my mum now that she's home.
i inspected stretching in the morning when i wake up and put it with the rest of my growing mountain.
i grabbed for two more and polished some rust off them.
i can walk around in the rain and i can scratch under my cat's chin.
it's easier to clean off the dirt and rust now. that's what i'm most grateful for.