Silver Lining | excerpt
"Shhh," he says, glaring, "your parents are gonna wake up if you don't shut up." Mika sighs. It has become a sort of routine, by now- Asher coming into her room and Asher leaving her room. (She really needs to get a lock on that damn window.) Ari, Mika's sister, enters the room, yawning as she closes the door behind her, her almond-shaped growing large as she takes note of Asher's presence in her sister's room.
"Mika," whispers Ari, as if she's been looped into some sort of crime, "there's a boy in your room." Mika (and Asher) stay silent, afraid of the fact that if Ari tells her parents about the certain someone in her sister's bedroom, all hell will break loose.
Especially if Officer Roman, Mika's father, were to notice the large, white stain covering Mika's considerably wet bed.
This is going to be great, thinks Asher.
/ your eyes \
her nose was crooked
he had wanted to make her perfect
he had made her insecure
she had a lip ring
another one of his adventures
“you’re too soft, for your own good.”
she had three cracked ribs
tripping down the stairs
because she was dizzy
and not eating
“i will not take a fat bitch with me.”
she had a bruised cheek
a reminder that he was in control
besides “beauty is pain.”
her back was scarred
“don’t you dare try to run away again.”
her eyes had constellations in them
new-world galaxies, yet to be discovered
her eyes were perfect
but she still wore contacts
because she was scared
not of him
but of his actions
one piece
one piece was all she asked for
one peice of her left unchanged
thin lines drawn upon her wrist
skillfully
a pool of blood around her
“martha winters was declared dead at 8:28 on February 2nd, 1987.”
he didn’t realize his love
was the cause of her destruction
- killer horns -
His mouth was dry as he entered this new land. A land of baths taken in blood. A land of death.
Her hands were shaking, as she searched through the caverns. She had to find him. She had to find her fiancé.
He screamed her name, hoping she would hear him. His voice cracked.
Hooves started to move. A horn of death placed upon the majestic creature’s head. His once white mane was stained a crimson red. The color of blood. Golden hair surrounded the horn on his head - it was the only part of him untouched by that ghastly red. His hooves slowed to a stop.
She stared at the bloodied unicorn in front of her. She was wrong. She was wrong to think it was the unicorn’s blood itsef.
Placing her hands on the darkest patch of blood, she grimaced. Her hands started to move, automatically combing through the creature’s fur in an attempt to find the source of all the blood. Her fingers traced the edge of something circular - a weapon perhaps? She struggled to pull it out, but finally she managed to free it of the unicorn.
It was her wedding ring.
| paper hearts |
my legs fumbled around
struggling to maintain posture
you helped me up
lifting me from this
world of fakes
for reality was awaiting
ready to guide me
and so i teared away this fantasy
crumpled it into a ball
and threw it out the window
you led me through the cave
my savior. my hero.
and then you left me
with two words- paper hearts
i didn't get it then, but i get it now
a piece of paper is replaceable
just like a heart
you were gone
yet no matter where you were
you still helped me
you were irreplaceable
not a paper heart
unlike me
i was just a scrap character
you were the main character
notice the change of articles
for it's quite important
there is only one of you
there are millions of me
for i'm just a scrap character
struggling to hold himself up
and sometimes i wonder
if it's all becuase of you
“reality”
a feminine man
entered a mundane land
filled with faries and wolves
a masculine woman
entered a peculiar world
filled with creatures called earthlings
who screamed of release
yet feared letting go
their worlds were different
a failed attempt at making society accept them
in reality it was all a dream
for faries and wolves didn’t exist
and we humans didn’t want to let go
screaming at each other “hold on”
to beliefs that destroyed lives
to a reality that broke dreams
we didn’t want to let go
we wanted everyone to stay the same
forever and ever and ever
until all those who broke the rules
trying to fix society
broke themselves
note- comment what this poem means to you - what was it about, interpret the poem. thank you. because, honestly i don’t even know what this means to me. yet.
Burning Throats
She raised the bottle to her lips- drinking away her sorrows. Her son stared at his mother, It was quite normal- his mother drinking in the midst of the night. Though his eight year-old brain couldn’t understand everything that was happening he got the gist of it. He knew his mother wasn’t like all other mothers. He knew drinking wasn’t something she should be doing. What he didn’t understand was- why? Why did she drink? What had happened to her? He didn’t know, but as his mother turned around bottle raised to her lips he knew it wasn’t the time to ask questions.
“What are you doing here, child?” Her voice stinked of the very substance she was drinking.
He cowered away, hiding beneath the sink.
“I. Asked. What. Are. You. Doing. Here. Child? She emphasized each word, hoping she would get an answer. She didn’t. In words, at least.
He was gone, reaching for the phone. A stinky little brat’s attempt to call 911.
She stalked over to her son, like predator, like prey. Her bloodshot eyes glaring at him. His mouth was moving, speaking into the phone, yet her broken mind couldn’t comprehend his words.
She would not be going to jail again. She would not return to that hell-hole again. So she did what she had to do.
Picking up a glass shard from one of the many bottles, she started quite a dark dance with her son. Their feet picking up speed, hands waving wildly in the air in attempts to steady themselves.
And then his salvation, brought the glass shard closer than before. He couldn’t escape. The phone cord was tangled wildly between his limbs. He couldn’t escape. His mother brought the shard down. Straight into his heart.
The phone spoke- “Kid, are you still there? Kid? Ok, Kid hang in there. We're coming to get you.
She stabbed herself.
The police found them both. In the living room. Blood pooled around their bodies. She was identified as a schizophrenic. A serial-killer on parole. Amanda Riggs.
He wasn’t her child.
(suicide)
"i heard garlic helps."
she was the weirdo. the freak. the outcast.
her boyfriend asked "how are you?"
she said "i'm fine."
he believed her
she raised the razor to her wrist
a butterfly was to die
she wore long sleeves the next day
her artwork was hidden beneath her clothes
the red strokes staining her porcelain skin
her lips were dry
her face was bruised
her body was broken
there she lay
hoping death would take her
and he came
placing a kiss upon her cold lips
the life drained out of her
as she let him devour her soul
his needs satisfied
her dreams becoming reality
she smiled
"take that." she whispered
a reminder of all the pain they had caused
{ america the beautiful }
they call america great. home sweet home. they don’t know. they don’t know the real her. a corrupt and greedy country run by even worse officials is what she is. a country founded on the basic freedoms of people, yet they ban the right to speak your mind. a paradox. a rotten apple. a facade of true beauty envelopes the evil within, adulterating the minds of new generations.
they call america great. a land of 'opportunity'. were the native americans given 'opportunities'? were the slaves given 'opportunities? hell, even today are we given 'opportunities'? education is an intelligent way to make money. jobs are a better way to increase the power of the government. what 'opportunities' have we been given that were meant for the people and only the people? the correct answer is none. exactly none.
they call america great. the land that i love. what is that? a land of teenage pregnancies, drug lords, gang wars, and obesity, or a land of peace, greenful country. the former describes america, the latter describes a world deviod of mundanes. they call america great. beautiful, even. they don’t know her. the real her. and nobody ever will.
- rookie -
wings trembled beneath the air
struggling to keep him up
gusts of wind blew throughout
narrowly missing his tiny body
a stream of air
was his last straw
the undoing of a little robin
the death of a bird
for as it hit him straight in the chest
he fell
slowly at first
his wings attempting to stop the fall
but gravity was stronger
pushing him along
right into the hands of death