Of Politics and People
There's lots of things I won't discuss
and most I'll never say
We pretend like things don't exist,
when they certainly won't go away
Of politics and people,
genders, clothes, and weight
you're entitled to your opinions
of that I won't negate
But riddle me this:
there are more sides than yours
and your close-minded ideas
may even shut opportunity doors
There's lots of things I won't discuss
and most I'll never say
my opinions are my own
my feelings quite the same
your opinion will not
make mine go away
Judge me
The true meaning of friendship
I know my deeds , I ll stand firmly what I did , though it ruined my friendship , even many other relationship got ruined up just because my soul took some but tough decisions which have made me the culprit , but my soul was feeling the turbulence happening inside me , one side was my friend who mean a lot to me , and another side was his cheating with two souls. He was manipulating and using their emotions physically playing with them .It broke me and shattered me In and out, some would blame for ruining up my relationship of friendship , some would even critize me for spilling up the facts which were meant to be secret , but were lethal for some souls which was affecting them , I would be a coward if I would have not taken that step , my decision have ended the evils of someone , my decision may have broken many hearts but they are thankful to me that it saved their lives which could have become a huge disaster , the deceptions and deceiving acts of someone close to me towards some one who is unknown to me unfamiliar shocked me from inside The pain what they went though because of someone is unimaginable , uncountable , yet I can sense the pain . I know the toughness and integrity for taking such a bold decision have disturbed many lives around me , but if I would have kept myself beside the silence of atrocity it would have ruined many lives in a more severe manner .
I don't know what I did was right
I don't know how they ll judge me
I don't know whether they ll understand me
I don't know whether they ll ask me
What I did for some would be backstabbing
But my soul knows that if I would have kept silent I would have ruined many lives ,
Friendship doesn't means to back and support for bad deeds , because support someone bad deeds is making you even the same culprit
One side is some one who is going through pains and on the other hand my relationship of friendship is being ruined up .Many are pointing out on my character that I have a personal interest with that girl impress and make her into my aspects
I am in a dilemma whether I did the right thing going a giant my friend and took the right side of that girl
Comment on whether I did right or wrong
Picture Imperfect
Thick fog blanketed parts of the city that day. The day Elly's life would change in ways she could never imagine, despite her creative imagination. Her hyper, over-active one she fostered through art. Painting, drawing, and more recently, photographing every little and large moment one could capture on camera.
She first got into photography thanks in part to her mother. Elly stumbled across an old photo album while helping her dad clean out the basement. They were a bit short on cash, so they were looking into selling some stuff they didn't need anymore at a garage sale. If not, they could always donate the findings to the less fortunate. But she had big dreams for the basement. Her own vision. Elly wanted to clear out everything, renovate the space, and rent it out to a couple or even a family. Maybe a young couple also short on cash or a new family with a kid. Unfortunately, the Clarkson family was in no position to redo an entire basement.
The album entranced Elly for ages. Her mom had to come down and tug at Elly's arm to get her attention. Food was cooked, waiting on the table.
Elly spent the evening flipping through the photos over and over again.
That's when her life started to change. At the time, it changed for the better.
One day not long after, she met a boy in her photography class at the local community college. Interestingly enough, he initially took more interest in her than she did for him.
They took turns posing as models for each other's work. Elly's portfolio had many pictures of him in it. Likewise held true too. He got rid of the other photos he took prior to meeting her, storing them away somewhere as an archive. He replaced old photos with new ones, pictures of her. Elly's pale hands. Her long legs. A shot of her face from the side with the sun in the background.
They spent a lot of time together. More and more time in fact.
It got to a point where Elly saw less of her mom and more of him. They weren't officially dating. At least, that's what Elly told herself. He never made a formal proclamation to be her boyfriend. And she was okay with that. For a while.
Every occasion the two went out somewhere, they both brought a camera along.
Until one day he didn't.
They were at the movie theater. Not exactly the perfect place to take good photos and silly selfies, but bad circumstances never stopped them before. She purchased the tickets, got the popcorn, and ambled over to him. Elly noticed something that made her pause right away.
"Where's your camera?"
"I left it at home," he mumbled.
Elly didn't think too much of this at the time. After all, he was human. People forget stuff every now and then. She didn't press him about it. They used her camera instead. She took all the pictures that day. Pictures of him mostly.
By this point, she was still using her mom's old camera. When Elly found some free time, she organized all the photos she took in her room, scattering the pictures on her bed. But Elly had been saving up. She landed a part-time job at the local grocery store. It wasn't exactly her dream job, but the manager paid her slightly above minimum wage. If she saved up for the next several months, Elly would have enough for a decent camera. She aimed to get one before the end of the year. Before his birthday. It would be a nice gift for both of them. Not just her. He didn't exactly have a good quality camera either. His father died in a motor vehicle accident several years ago. Since then, his mom had to work two jobs in order to take care of three kids—him and his two older brothers.
Turns out she would never get a chance to surprise him with the new camera.
Elly worked her tail off and eventually purchased one. But in the end all the camera did was collect dust in the corner of her room.
She spotted him at their garage sale. The family finally managed to clear out the basement. The weather was surprisingly warm despite it being near the end of the year. The clouds made way for the sun in the sky. Its rays beat down on the pavement.
"Hey!"
He turned, ever so slowly.
She jogged over to him with a grin on her face. "I was thinking—"
"Elly, I have to go."
"But you just got here."
"I'm leaving for good."
"Where's your camera?" She didn't know why this question popped into her mind or how it even spilled out of her mouth. But it bothered her too much to see him without one.
He didn't meet her eyes. "I'm not interested anymore."
With that, he walked away without another word.
Elly didn't know what exactly he was referring to. Was he not interested in her? In photography? In something else entirely?
She never got an explanation. She didn't even get a goodbye.
No matter what she did, he didn't reply. She called him first on his cell phone and then at home. She got voicemail both times. Then she decided to send him an email. Nothing. By then she hadn't expected a reply.
Elly refused to look at the pictures of him and her together. Some days she had the greatest urge to delete every photo on her camera, even the ones he wasn't in. But she couldn't bring herself to do anything.
After the garage sale ended, Elly ran to her room and stared at the new digital camera on her dresser well into dark hours of the night. She wouldn't get rid of it, not after working half a year just to buy it. But Elly didn't feel like using it either.
She gave the camera to her mom instead.
VENUS Vs JUPITER
Venus slows down until Jupiter glides by taking advantage of my heart vibrating my soul focusing
On cold dusty saturated boggy bay filled with nights of ransom for a sip of time while life's got me slurping on it like it's a slurpee hawks swoop down on me in circular motion above my head repeating the cycle of history crushing my bare essence . bones now translucent riddled with Interlocked
density consumed brittleness that soon crackle-with each quake and tremble of my breath my ribs open and close like shutters on a window leaving me stuck on limestone parkway and softer then his featherbone I'm on the rebound of selling pieces of me for .25 cents but it will cost you a little more for the puppet strings batteries aren't included partial smile or wink and blink, couple of kisses will set your wallet on flames and your latest house note in foreclosure because a woman's love only stretches so far before it bends then breaks all while surfing on a wave of heart break
6/28/17. MYA