Without a goodbye, you sped down the road

You fucking left me young and crying because you wanted control

I was nine, how the fuck was I supposed to understand?

You thought a refilled bottle would save you on command

I guess for a few hours it did, until you woke up with your chest stitched

When you swallowed all those pills, did you expect to be found in a ditch?

Those painkillers killed your pain. You got what you wanted.

But you killed your arteries too and now we're all haunted

But that's just a typical day in comparison

Not too long ago I gave you your weekly medicine

It's prescribed to you, by me, as a result of your disease.

Those half-shut eyes and shallow breathing...

Once again, I reached into my nightstand

And administered your narcan

I live everyday of my life 

knowing that to my father,

I was a product for sale,

not a human being who deserves to know my paternal side.  

With dollar signs in his eyes

And zero thought to how I might cry

I live everyday of my life

knowing that to the sperm clinics, 

my existence is a huge profit to their business. 

I live everyday of my life

knowing that 

my conception

My existence 

was a transaction. 

1538

Four small digits

That represent half my DNA

I’ve been searching for you, 1538.

You had me for money

But I am not for sale

You have a daughter

And being ghosted is like swallowing salt water

Tell your cousins, tell them the truth

You’ve given me life and it’s something you can’t undo

Own up to it, I’m exisiting and researching

I’m gonna find you, 1538.

I’m gonna find you

#father #dad #ancestry #dna #ancestrydna

Knowing people are embarrassed to be seen with me will be one of the worst feelings I’ll have during these nine months. It seems so unfair that people can go out and have all the sex they want, taking the risk of pregnancy every single time, but once someone gets unlucky, suddenly people don’t want to be associated with them. Alright, go on, keep pretending like pregnancy isn’t a possibility from that random guy you hooked up with after the bar last night. If it happens to you, you’ll be begging for forgiveness and support.

You wanna see me with your sweatshirt on.

I wanna see you with a button down on

So I can unbutton it and rip that shit off

You make me drip with your clothes undone

You make me trip on my words with your hung

You make me careless and want to cum

Closer to your lips and we can split some rum

We can sip, then I’ll ride, until we’re both gone

#sex #arousal #promiscuous #love #lust

Daydream about me, not that girl.

Throw yourself into me, not at her.

We speeding down the highway like nascar.

Bumping tunes, the bass gettin’ fatter.

Our hair blowin’, hands brushin’, I’m damn sure

I wanna press my lips onto Saturn.

#feelings #crush #love #outerspace

You ask me to send you nudes

Boy, you ain't the only dude

I should charge to send to you

Cuz if I reject you respond rude

Stackin' bills from your declined mood

Rackin' views from desperate dudes

Stupid ass, I'm taking advantage of you

I'll be sure to collect your dues

#nudity #men #boys #humour

I got something I gotta get off of my chest

Together, we may not have been the best

I know right now we are both doing our best

But babe you always had me impressed

But please, please, please don't go for the rest

of the time we have on this earth.

We have much to learn...but together, so much we've learned.

#love #miss #nostalgia #relationship

Christmas morning gasps of excitement

This toy truck on your wishlist for 365 days

Now in your hands and ready to play

You can’t wait for fun, but you can’t wait to open more.

Your face stretches to expose your bright, white teeth

Christmas tunes fill the room...vroom vroom, you say

with that little white truck.

Please, darling, don’t ever grow up.

I remember the days of holding you all day

Your precious being would sleep in my arms

When you finally sneaked a peek to see me

Your face brightened at the sight of your aunt

Your eyes...so extravagant.

Big, blue eyes, innocent and unhurt

Please, darling, be careful ’cause what you learn can burn.

#children #growup #age #youth

How do I tell you

I want to take you to a hotel room

And kiss between your thighs

Until you climax and yell too

#sex #oral #erotica #love #lust