imagine your on a blacked out street you see some kid on a skate board and he waves, would you wave back yes or no he starts coming towards you just pushing then you see his face covered aside from his eyes. You regonize those eyes the dark sea blue eyes do you recognize them do you see his long eyelash's as he's walking you start to see his dirty shoes that he always wore the gray shoes with three large stripes, He stops right infront of you his heavy breathing on your face as he looks down you see his hoodie a blue hoodie a large one on him as he says " Hey" you're wondering why is he here why did i run into him of all the people why him he takes down his mask and kisses you

You wake up your heart is racing like you were running you take your meds with water and then get dressed and read your book while your beutiful green and some what yellow eyes go back and forth on the page, page 193 you hear a knock at the door and you remember the dream but its only your mom walking in tired from work

then you hear the rough sound of a skate board just stop as the person gets off of it you peek out the window as you see the bright blue hoodie and his eyes the same sea blue eyes your heart starts racing the same blue hoodie that you saw in your dream

you see his hands he has a sunflower with a letter attached to it he puts it on your front porch you go to pick it up but he sees you

As hes running away you see he's shy you see the same board as you saw in your dream as he vanishes from your sight you smell the sunflower deeply as you enjoy that smell you open the letter it reads " I hope you slept well as you read the signiture in a sloppy hand writing it reads your freind from the bridge Z" you find it strange as you get water for the sunflower you remember the kiss then you wake up crying.

to be honest im scared but thats what fuels my drive fear, pain and you i wont let u end this with out saying good bye because there is no way in hell im letting you go without a struggle and you can be so stubborn for no reason you used to tell me to go into my head and destroy those thoughts so do that

Are you happy you finally got rid of me was it for someone or was it so you can get rid of this peice of shit of a guy remember whne you left me for him when i was crying at the lunch table you came over with him i wanted i take my chance and punch him but hey what can i do ive tried everything in my power to help you but in the end i was nothing to you you told me i was nothing and youre right

im confused on why someone could want someone else out of their life so bad that they wait until they care for you alot more than they did but in the end it was all your fault and you’re thinking that wow i fucked it up again but you take that persons kindness for granted and truth be told i did do but i only realized after she blocked me i think when she realized i destroyed myself for her and when she noticed she tried pushing you away by moving on getting back with her ex but you love her so damn much that i destroyed my future and mental being just for her and when u have cuts on ur knuckles from getting into fights but thats the only pain u want to feel honestly i would rather have physical pain bc through out my life i was abused, bullied, depressed and at a time suicidal but i pushed through it even though i was put through shit i never gave up but i was about to give up bc of her but i thought to myself even after all of this torture i didnt give up i smiled but as soon as ur heart gets broken u give up i thought thats not you you promised ur family and friends to never give up and u sure as hell aint gonna give up now you will keep chasing her i found my queen but i was never given the love of a normal kid i was given the rough and strict and shitty love but me getting mad jealous and sad doesnt mean im a dick it just means it my broken way of loving you you may have not broken me but i sure as hell wont let u think i dont i may have changed but that doesnt mean im the same person just had time with myself to improve myself in my way but im sorry to her i really am i may have lied but i shouldnt have but how cant i when i think ur the best and i wanna be like you

---zack

I think love songs are stupid in a way because they help you cope and feel better but its actually the opposite they tear you down and they make you feel stuck

I was listening to one today and thought this is stupid how you cant just let them know that you are hurting so much but when you think about it, it doesnt make sense how someone you love can be so harsh and forget about you and leaving you feel empty while they are happy you try and try to be better just for them but never yourself trust me i know all to well but when you have that backlash and for get what happieness feels like it feels good but not in the warm hearted way more like the nessary way it feels cold but good better but worse thats what love songs are for they make you feel as though that happens nothing else nothing less

I like to think maybe she wasnt right maybe i made to many mistakes and thats why she moved on

No, it didnt turn out that way she moved on in a blink of a eye like a bee she can seem apealing but then if you get to close to the hive or the heart they will sting you over and over again but you keep going back because you like how the honey tastes its sweet ot its bitter but if you're not careful you will get stung it will hurt but like a little kid you will overthink it and think maybe she found that guy because you kept going back and caring and loving in your own way love isnt like the movies where it all ends happily ever after love is a terrible brutal thing that will eat at you over and over and over again but the one im talking about it was sweet at the beginning then the ex or the new guy will take her away like they always do then you will feel empty but it will get better things have to go south before they go north

it takes a lot of courage to confess love on your own

i once fell for a girl with pretty brunette

i fell for her but headed for the worse we broke up over silly things and we broke each other many times but this last time

I was nervous the last time i talked to her because she fell for another guy and i didnt know what to do but i kept up with myself didnt let her in because i knew she would try to make me let go again i want to keep what we have but she hasnt responded in 2 days even with my bestfriend around i was still looking at the messages

he asked me a intresting question "do u still like her?" i answered "idk maybe yea bc love is fucked up." i always look forward to her texts because she was the best person i have ever met well romanticly to be honest im glad she moved on but im worried shell for get me

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