one day, wether you are 14, 28 or 65,

you will stumble upon someone

who will start a fire in you that

cannot die.

however, the saddest,

most awful truth you will ever find

- is that they are not always

with whom we spend our lives.

- Beau Taplin

Even if you have one soulmate there is no guarantee you’ll be able to spend you greatest joys and worst sorrows with them. Love is so precious and fleeting and true love is so rare, but it sometimes isn’t destined for forever.

But regardless, I like to think you’ll know if you meet your soulmate. A fire, a pure, almost involuntary fire will be lit. And it will never, ever go out. You may not be able to spend eternity with your soulmate, but a part of you has changed from meeting them. And it makes the time you get to spend with your soulmate even more irreplacable, because it might only be for a day. For a month. Even for a year. It puts into perspective how extremely lucky the ones are that get to spend a lifetime or eternity with thier soulmate. How wondorous and beautiful love is. And how temporary love can be. How awful reality can be with and without love.

I wish that one day I will no longer shake and cry at change

I wish that one day I will finally understand my own mind

I wish that one day I won’t worry about so many “what ifs”

I wish that one day I can smile and truly be happy

I wish that one day I can look at someone and see the good in them

I wish that one day I can look at a room and not see the exit and think the worst

I wish that one day my mind won’t go off track every other thought

I wish that one day I can understand that people actually like me

I wish that one day I can understand that I am not disliked by all

I wish that one day I can understand that I am loved and cared for

I wish that one day I can enjoy my mind, rather than be afraid

I wish that one day my mind will no longer be a confounding puzzle