sometimes i think i’ve lived too long

but then i remember all i still have to do

then i remember all that i’ll never have time for

and i realize

there is no such thing as living too long

every second we get on this planet is precious

the good and the bad

in reality,

i think no one has ever lived long enough

no one has ever gotten to do everything they could

i’m going to do everything my short time allows me too

and i’ll do whatever i can

to make my time long and worthwhile

you haven’t lived too long

there are still people who need you

whether it’s now or in the future

don’t let them down

by making your life shorter than it was meant to be

Sometimes I think I’ve lived too long.

The people who have cried over me,

the time people have spent on me,

the money people gave me,

the thoughts that make me sound deranged.

It all makes me think I’ve lived too long.

She says otherwise, but I say so.

Sometimes I think i’ve lived too long.

Way too long.

Sometimes I think I’ve lived too long. I think this but never say it out loud.

I am worried the minute I say it outloud, I will cease to exist.

It fills me with panic.

I say to the heavens “I have not lived enough yet.”

I need more time to love my kids. I need more time to lay naked with my husband entangled in his need for me. I need more time to learn, to laugh, to play.

Sometimes I think I’ve lived too long.

But I haven’t.

I never could.

@famewriter

Sometimes I think I've lived too long,

but then I realize I'm still a child,

only 15,

but yet, in my head,

I feel as if my life is nearly done,

and I've been told I'm as wise as old adults,

and that makes me think I've lived too long,

and it holds me back from living,

my wisdom makes my fears,

and keeps me from doing so much,

and it keeps me wondering when will it be over,

and I've been told to loosen up,

when that just makes me tighter,

which makes me think I've lived too long,

making my mind my only safe place,

finding new fears around every corner,

acting like a young child,

to forget I feel like a 60-year-old,

and I just want a break,

or lose this wisdom,

so maybe I can live,

so that makes me think I've lived too long,

but then I realize I'm an adult,

stuck in the body of a teen,

with the wisdom of a grandfather,

living a busy life,

without a break,

so sometimes I think I've lived too long.

Ever present

Consistent

A constant companion

My shadow

My faithful friend

Whispering

Yelling

Slow down

Stop

While I continue

Ignore

Compete

Live