Mildew on the porch
Mildew on the porch,
Wet floor boards,
Encircled hearts engraved in the wood.
Steam rises above the bowl of porridge
Warmth spreading throughout her hands
Travelling through the lines who’ve known old age.
Droplets parachuting down onto his head:
A little boy.
She has her left hand up,
Pats his hair.
There, there.
It’s just a little rain.
The sky meshes with the porridge
And the steam;
A tango of difference yet similarity.
At some point,
The door will creak,
Once the hours pass.
The sky will be left outside.
And by the fire,
The drops will cease to echo
In the creases of the patio.
Then when she’s turned to dust and flown away,
Steam will rise from porridge bowls again
A certain pitter patter will come back -
Blaring -
It’ll be for her.
For how she sat on the mildew stained porch.
Droplets will fall into the bowl,
Yet the spoon will still reach his lips,
The sky having mixed with the sugar,
And he’ll say:
Really, it’s just a little rain.
The Theft of a Lifetime
She had poisonous fingers and sharpened nails made to slice.
You thought walking alleys was a good idea at night time.
You had locs so long and and persona so bright.
I was searching for a new name and quite frankly, a new life.
Your day had come, but I can't say I had nothing to do with it.
I knew her and had asked her to be the culprit.
So now your name is mine - my new identity seems fit.
Your story ended, so I will rewrite it.
Peas in a Pod
two peas in a pod,
except one is missing.
odd numbers are dangerous
when she has no one else.
how many options does she have
if no one chooses her?
walls protect hearts
so there won’t ever be a best friend.
flips her hair and raises her hand
when she hasn’t got a partner.
out of three,
who will lose?
two peas in a pod,
except one rejects the other.
Questions and Thoughts on Alienation
You ever feel like a total alien?
Like you’re only pretending to be human?
Like you’re just mimicking whatever ‘human’ behaviours are expected of you?
I feel like everybody will probably experience this at some point in their lives, whether it's for a few months, years or a mere couple hours.
It’s odd.
. . .
But a little bit cool at the same time.
It kind of feels like you exist in a different realm, and you’re just peeking into human life. Gathering whatever information you can, so you can go report your findings at your fancy alien univesity later on.
I took a personality test once, turns out I’m an INTJ (I don’t really think this test is legitimate though). Apparently, INTJs usually feel like aliens a ton. So maybe that’s why.
But then again, I think everybody goes through this, so probably not.
Maybe we’re all aliens. But then wouldn’t that mean we aren’t aliens? Because an alien would imply somebody that is somehow different, right? But if we are all one thing, then nobody is different, hence nobody is an alien.
Hmmmm.
Here’s the definition of an alien:
Alien: belonging to a foreign country or nation
Now I’m even more confused than when I started writing this. That’s how I know I should stop writing . . . Also the word alien sounds so weird to me now.
A Lingering Umbrella
It was fine at first
When the rain of their words first poured
And their insults were blades of glass
You were in the right then
Held up your umbrella above my head
Convinced the cold droplets to slide away
And now the rain has passed
But your umbrella is still held tight
I’m grateful for what you’ve done for me
But I miss my sunlight.
An Apology for Bitter Truth
It'll break this time,
I saw the cracks in the story before I left.
It'll break this time,
You've mistreated it all your life.
It'll break this time,
You've ignored the callings.
It'll break this time,
You've looked past all passion.
It'll break this time,
Your poor soul is about to shatter.
I'm so sorry but
It'll break this time.
For Once
For once, let go. Let the pain slide out from your fingers like sand, breathe again. This control is killing you, so let go. With every passing minute you stay stuck clutching knives to your chest, the deeper your wounds will get. God knows the knives may be diamond encrusted, or have other superficial value to us people, but there’s more out there. You have a road, there’s a plan for you. L e t g o.
Inspired by Jeremiah 29:11