trigger warning
He could deceive me.
Leave me bent and broken,
Lying among shattered bottles on the floor.
I couldn't hide my doubt at first,
The earlier pain and misery went hand in hand with his abuse.
Then I learned to relent.
I faked it,
Pretending that everything was okay.
Little did he know that I was coming unraveled,
smile
and
lie
smile
and
lie
Little did he know that I was coming unraveled,
Pretending that everything was okay.
I faked it,
Then I learned to relent.
The earlier pain and misery went hand in hand with his abuse.
I couldn't hide my doubt at first,
Lying among shattered bottles on the floor.
Leave me bent and broken,
He could deceive me.
Coal
Sometimes life becomes a burden
If it's swallowed by the shadows of sadness
But it ends up being a heavier load
If you end up falling in love with a complete stranger
They get under your skin
And as incubus they burn your soul down
The Sun is no longer hotter
Than the burning love they infected you with
"All my life I wasn't honest enough
And I thought I would never get over you."
The mantra my saddened life repeats over and over
Whenever your face comes to my mind.
You're the little breeze that feeds my lungs
However this unknown love has become toxic
And my blood, blackened now, because of your
Unrequited love is hardening becoming into coal...
DA 2015
i’m your friend, you’re my fantasy
it isn't much--and it may not make sense-- but it's yours, S.
your blue eyes can mix with mine and my browns and your blues can become hazel and exist without the confines of time.
our bodies
our bodies can collide
our bodies can coincide
i can feel warm again, feel something again, and our bodies can fit outside the lines of the coloring book our generation tends to epitomize.
we could even make our own new outline.
our hands
hold my hands
i ache for the warmth of your hands around mine
what a day it will be to feel warmth again
you could make me warm again
i'll be dammed if you feel cold again
i'll do all i can to help you to feel good within.
look at me
don't look at me hurting
just look at me working to feel better, not worse.
see me persevere
i may be bad at most things, but quitting isn't at the top of my list of accomplished things.
watch me work to do better
watch me work to help others
look as i try to help you.
help me help you.
as i hold on to you,
i beg of you,
help me live,
let me live life with you.
‘I wish I could’ve lived in those simpler times’
Up in the sitting room
carved with a chisel
and a little soul
cheeky girl too full
of ideas and dreams
caught up in a corset
too tight for breath
for thought
for damning breasts
'Hey now girl,
mind your place'
simpler times.
Up in the stable
tied to an old post
rough hemp
rough hands and a
lash to dash away
the rebellious I wont’s
I cant’s
wipe away the ‘I’
'Hey now, slave,
mind your place'
simpler times.
Up in the office
mouthful of vinegar
hide hot from belt
and belittling
father dear had to
beat out the queer
kill off the tears
learn him to be
a real man
'Hey now, boy,
mind your place'
simpler times.
Heat
When the Sun is high above
Every thing turns white
Every thing starts to melt
And blood begins to boil
When the heat strikes with force
Every one is in need
Of a refreshing fountain of youth
Which happens to be love
When the Sun begins to burn
The skin of the hard worker
His skin begins to dry
In those forgotten lands
When the Sun burns down
The land of the Praised Sun
Nothing is left but ashes
Everything and love is now a pile of charcoal
Love is nowadays
Something so dry
Something so gray
Something stained by soot
Even heat is the source of all
This hatred making people
Scald those around then
In this land melting by the flames of Gehenna
No water can quench this wrath
That every person feel
In the City of The Sun
No justice exists
This is something Mexico
And every part of the world
Have to endure
A heat that burned down love and made wrath grow
Now the heat that my fire produces
Makes every one around me die
Wrath and hate burn down big cities
With this heat called words
Heat is what feeds them
Heat that surpasses love
And there is no salvation
When all water of love is just vapor
Forgotten in the past.
DA 2015
Hurt
When you are so in love with someone
And that love becomes a pain
When you know you can be a good candidate
And all you get is an unrequited vote
When someone steals the love from you
Without them realizing what they did
When you exposed your heart too much
And it is already worn out
When the smile of only a someone
Is the only cure for every nightmare in your life
When she's only a few miles apart
But eternities away from your heart
When everything you taste every night
Are bitter apples and salt
When the reaper is by your bed
And the only salvation is her
When you know she can breathe and give life
To the arid lands of your life
When everything around you is destroyed
And have nothing but mute and blind witnesses
When you try to break every rule for that heart
But they decide to turn you to hellish justice
When your life becomes Samsara
While in reality you were looking for Nirvana
When you can't forget about her face
And she is every hallusination you see
When the world is full of empty, cold shadows
And she denies you her light
When she wonders what to do with destiny
While you bear in your hands the velvet thread of love
When there is more than just a person in front of you
And she is only able to see a smoky mirror
When you poured all your spirit
When you wrote with all the ink running through your veins
When your spirit is nothing but a pile of broken ice
When you gave it all many times before, and you ended giving everything up
That's when life for a poet has ended.
He is trapped now in uncertainty.
He cannot think in another lover.
He cannot see inside his soul.
He is in primal suffering.
He's become a slave of toxic love.
DA 2015