anger is what i feel

when the world falls apart

and there is seemingly nowhere

for me to run

anger is what i see

when i turn on the news

and look at the hopeless faces

screaming for justice

anger is what i hear

when i listen to the dark melodies

of songs played across the radio at

any time of day

anger is what i smell

when the smoke rises from the horizon,

sending a message to those who have

done them wrong.

anger is what you and i

carry inside of us. it eats

us alive until we find a way

to release it. or it consumes us

and all we love with it.

Little bit by little bit

each day shall pass away

life is fleeting

be forgiving

leave the lemons

in the dirt

And so

The candle

Was

Consumed

By the flame -

She had

No regrets

As she loved

The fire

And the taste

Of the smoke

Sometimes I wonder 

If we were ever really in love

Or maybe it was just 

Two broken souls looking

Thirsting even

For someone else

To notice them

Until we realized

That we didn't need

Each other

But your name

Still tears up my heart

So I wonder

Why I ever cared

And why I still do

I got lost

Lost in a dark black alleyway

Filled with sorrow and rejection

Felt the waves of depression wash over me.

I felt the feelings sink in

They became my own

The thoughts running around my head

Mine but not mine.

I just wanted out.

But the more I searched,

The more I got lost.

Twisting and weaving my way through.

There was a just a one way road.

With mountains surrounding it.

There was no way back.

Just forward.

Slowly, the ground shook.

The mountains fell.

Trapping me in.

With barely any room to breathe.

It was like I was on the verge of death.

And its claws were trying to pull me.

But life was holding on

And putting up an unwanted fight.

I got lost

In this dark black alleyway

I got lost

In her dark black eyes.

Three in the morning,

as the shadows toll,

you sit alone -

born from the clouds

but strewn on ground,

sitting on mound

of dissembled lies,

curled and swirled

in fetal crush.

Only you can hear

your heartbeat straining

to be heard above

roar of pounding rain.

Unseen behind white smoke

of somber indifference,

you fight to escape

loveless husk

when you don’t

even love yourself

in the vertigo

of midnight strife.

Erased and defaced

in still silence,

you decide

your own fate.

#Challenge #LetterToGirlWhoSitsAlone

A battle within-

For all you see.

Find which side to follow-

It is not so easy.

The light vs. dark-

Moving with evil inside.

Or wanting to be surrounded by goodness-

A daily choice.

We all decide.....

#GreaterGood/LesserEvil

#InnerDemons&Angels

#Choose

Sadness

A feeling

You feel deep down in your core

Curiosity

An entanglement you can’t bear anymore

Innocence

A long lost friend

Discovery

A space in which I’d like to contend

Can free me of this feeling, I feel deep down inside

The depths and the trenches within my own mind

These thoughts I’m drowning in, this place in which we hide

We’re ebbing and flowing

In this sea of consciousness

drowning

in the taste of blood & my gurgling lungs

darkness pulses, closing in upon me

the claustrophobia kicks in, as free as i am

that tunnel appears again, dark spots swirling to some unknown point in the distance

light again

is it the light of the tunnel? am i gone yet?

fading

fluttering conciousness and trailing bubbles

never mind

gone, gone into the depths and the eternal darkness

down to the bottom of the ocean

to the hungry teeth ripping, tearing

flesh and blood in the water all around

and yet not me

still trapped in the cold, cold, water

still drowning