Living color
There it was. The unearthly
visage,
as if it were a pulsing,
flowing tide —
as if it lived and breathed.
My eyes struggled to explain
the cosmic ray of light,
A coffee-stain upon my vision,
in ways my mind could grasp.
The image burned itself
into my retinas
so I could see it still
with every tiresome blink.
I became horribly aware
of the nature of color —
Amalgams of blinding lights
Existing at different frequencies
Being absorbed and reflected
endlessly.
What power, what exhaustion
our minds must be privy to
to process it all
so seamlessly?
What strength, then,
Must the color before me hold
To defy the human brain?
Unwell
I'm sitting here on my couch. My forehead feels warm and my throat feels scratchy. But not feeling 100% has been a pretty regular part of life lately. Of course it's all for a goal. The feverish state is from my recent vaccination, an effort to protect myself. And all the other aches, pains and weight gains are part of the process of creating a life. These are far better reasons to feel unwell than I've experienced in the past.
My Writing Process
…is a metaphor, of course.
A canvas of glass called what if hangs before me. Through it, the world appears as it is, but I can paint over it and make changes. Make one alteration—remove or add a constant—and explore how different life in the world can be.
Now, to render this change. I dab my brush in one word. Like color, the word has a set definition, but it also has a feeling, a mood, a tone, and its definition grows with context. I sample other syllables, and when I find the right tint, I sweep it on the glass.
More colors follow, shaped into images that move and jump off the canvas. They form a hologram standing next to me, still hollow, still too easy to see through. To make them real, I need special paint.
I take more what-ifs and grind them into sand, then stir this with the hued powders of how and the juices of why. This textured paint fills in the world with history, culture, and purpose.
Leftovers sit in my palm, clunky and dull. My fist closes, crunches, and uncurls, revealing remnants and hints of backstory. With a slow, gentle breath, I blow this glitter of emotion onto the canvas. It wafts and whispers into the peaks and valleys, delineating highlight and shadow, just enough to enhance the tones already there.
The piece is as complete as I can make it, for the final ingredient must come from you—your interpretation, your reason, your imagination. Will you see beyond the lines and tones of a two-dimensional glass plane?
Tweezers
I kiss
your
anointed
head
a thousand
times.
Chew
both
ears
with
honey
glazed
kisses.
Rip off
the emptiness
clouding
your forehead
with my tongue
serving
as the
mediator
of love energy
transfered.
Suck your eyebrows
with lots of jelly,
as it drips
into your
eyes sockets.
I recover
and purge
your cheek
with more
of the same
nectar.
Sweep the
rims of
your hair,
till it dries
away your fear.
I only stop
when your
smile can't
comprehend
how deeply
I care...
Saved your lips
for the tough
test,
as I examine
your chin
and tender
breath
with
active jel.
Petunia
unzips
his conscience
by
embracing
the bolts
of electricity
surfinia
purple
vein
tempest...
Creme!
Creme!
Our Lady of Sorrows
She sees their wings as she looks up to the heavens, beating against the earth, as searing as the sun. As her son. Feathers of gold and white and pure holy light. As sweet and clamouring as church bells. The trumpets of holy God fill her ears, crystal clear music. Every sight, every sound, is like a kiss upon the lips. She reaches up her arms, kneeling at the cliffs edge, there is a churning sea below her. The water glows golden as it reflects the sun. She reaches up, up, reaching out to the angels. Stretching her bones as far as they will stretch. There are voices behind her. Voices. Voices she once knew. Now all she knows is the angels. She leans out, over the chasm, she leans forward. She teeters, she falls, twisting and tumbling in the air. Eyes fixed on the heavenly flapping of wings.
The Garden
Chapter 1
It starts with the earth, with the bones that rest beneath the surface, and it ends the same way. Somewhere in between is the garden.
Miranda works in the sun, as she does every day and has for lifetimes. Bare hands in the soil, pushing and pulling. She tugs up old roots and discards stray weeds as she digs, but they always seem to grow back. Black dirt builds beneath her fingernails and sweat beads on the back of her neck, like dew. The roots of her hair are slick with it. Strands of red, ringleted hair, fall in front of her face as she works. She lets the hair hang there, framing her vision. She relishes these stolen glimpses of herself, in a garden without mirrors.
Above her, perched on the leaf of a tangled rose bush, is a lithe little robin. The red breasted bird sings as she works, hopping across pink petals and watching her with its glossy black eyes. Miranda whistles back a merry little tune.
The garden itself is more like a forest. Overrun with flowers the size of trees, rosebushes that tower at ten feet tall. Climbing foxgloves and lilies. The garden is a winding labyrinth. Open glades and dense patches of tangled flora. All circulating around a central oak, an ancient beast of a tree. Its dark branches hang over the entirety of the garden, dripping with wisteria and honeysuckle. Sunlight washes over the landscape, honey-thick and bright, casting inky shadows in the undergrowth.
Only when Miranda is tired and stiff, is she satisfied with the grave. It is just deep enough to cover him. He has been strangled by the thorny branch of a white rose. He lies beside her on the grass. His grey eyes are blank and staring thoughtlessly up at the sapphire sky. His hand rests limply on his breast. Blood drips from little cuts in his neck, imprints from rose thorns, onto the soil. Thick and red like the velvet lining of his jacket. Miranda looks over his face, deep lines from age distort his skin, like the cracked bark that covers the oak tree. From the deep wrinkles around his mouth, she can tell that when he was still living, he was always smiling.
Now comes the hardest part. Hauling his body into the grave. Over the centuries Miranda has built strength in her back and shoulders, but death’s weight never seems to ease. She drags him across the glade. His limp body splays out in her arms, limbs outstretched and saintlike. When he is settled, face down, she begins to cover him over.
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Title: The Garden
Genre: Gothic
Age Range: Adult
Word Count: 50,300 total
Author: Maya Sharp
Hook: What is this garden? Why is this woman burying a body?
Synopsis: Miranda has been trapped in a supernatural garden for 3000 years. The garden murders those that visit - Miranda is left to bury the bodies and the roots of the garden eat them. Miranda begins to befriend outsiders who convince her to leave the garden, she does and begins to realise the evils of the garden. Being away from the garden she begins to slowly die. Miranda returns to the garden and burns it down. This kills her.
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I am an unpublished, young, female writer of gothic and fantasy fiction based in the North of England. I am currently undergoing a Masters Degree in Creative Writing at the Manchester Writing School and am being mentored by Nicholas Royle. I have a degree in Photography which informs much of my writing, along with my knowlege of art history - primarily Victorian art. The Garden is inspired by the Pre Raphaelite movement.
Striving to be understood
I am a person that respects every being’s existence. I like people despite apparent flaws. I’m not an extrovert but I connect on individual levels. I may say something goofy or lame at times. Yet, a lot of times I’m just a person striving to be understood… Not by everyone but at least the people I live with.
Family. Those are my people, regardless I’m oftentimes misunderstood. It’s like the years of living together has taught them nothing about me. They are patient with outsiders, but a single act or deed I do pisses them off.
I question my existence most of the time because of their behaviour towards me. I had prayed for a rescue but my saviour over time disappointed me.
Now I believe my only escape from this constant strife is writing. But the ability to do that too is questioned in almost every argument.
I got this far surviving through my words. Why does that get questioned is beyond my understanding! Why provoke me to discard the one thing that keeps me sane and happy?
Strangers are kinder and more understanding than the people we feel we belong to.
I want to strive no more. I’m tired of proving myself. I’m exhausted from showcasing my existence.
That’s when I break down. I cry to be understood… by my own people. The people that I want to care about but disregard my knowledge, understanding, abilities and capabilities.
I don’t mind a world of fame but what is fame if you can’t share it with the ones you love? If they care a damn about how you get there, it’s no point letting them in on your success, right? They didn’t believe in you anyway. Yet, me being the kinder person would want to let them know about my successes, not to rub it in their faces because of their lack of support, but because they are “family”.
To me, family is the power that makes me cry every single time that I do.
Voltage
The rug as
been nice to
us.
And I won’t stop
massaging
your amazing
double lollies.
You won’t
stop laughing
as my touch
has a
rhythmic
class
of note.
Every
radius
of your
hemispherical
tender cherries
is like light
travelling
as a particle
and a wave
at the same
time.
Nothing less
than extraordinary,
as they twinkle
and emit vibes
that vibrates
like a thousand
band of ripples
across your body,
while they
pass through
my slitting heart
and find an
obtuse angle
to provoke petunia
to sit up still.
Wow! They’re amazing.
I switched from
my hands,
lubed the meso
pores and micro pores
with my berry
berry frictional
jelly.
You sighed deeper
when I concentrate
the jelly on
your crunchy cherries.
The wave
rose as
my
jelly
headed
downstream.
The current
of the
lollies
flushed
me to
surfinia
territory.
My hands
conducted the
electrons from your
cherries electrode,
further activating
the jelly
for the next feast.
A whole bite
of the burger,
nearly all
of the
labia buns
and the
inner labia steak
fit into my mouth
as I pulled
them apart.
Hmmm!
So tender
and chewy.
Your moaning
deepened
as I tried
to take
another fill...
Asian pigeonwings
sauced
with
your strawberry jelly.
Medium rear!
Oh! Yeah!
Huh! Huuuuh!
You won’t stop
breaking
the record
of your peaked
screams.
Bubbaargh!
Hmmm! Hmmm!
The lushy valley
explosives
started detonating.
Petunia
sets the
timer running
as he crushed
the walls
of your purple
vein like
lightning
strikes
metal sheets.
Fast dips...
No Bubba!
No! Huh!
Nooooohhhhh!
Kiss cream
spills.
Scarecrow
We have had a vegetable garden for the last 25 years. Each year my husband has battled with wildlife. The first year, he called me wild-eyed (granted, it was a phone call, and his eyes could not be seen, but the sound of his voice made the state of his eyes quite clear).
Anyway, I was in the middle of teaching a Spanish literature class and we were interrupted by the PA system: Mrs. Tezcan, please come to the main office. At the same moment, the office secretary came in my room to watch my class.
“It’s your husband. He sounds really upset.”
Thinking immediately of my son, I ran down the hall to the main office. I picked up the phone. “Canim?”
“He ate my tomatoes!!” he screamed.
“What?”
“That woodchuck! He ate my tomatoes. And he didn’t even have the decency to eat a whole one; he just took a bite and tossed the rest on the ground. All my hard work!”
“You called me because the woodchuck ate your tomatoes?”
“Yes! At least 20!”
“Is Anka okay?”
“Anka?”
“Our son?”
“Of course.”
“Good. I have to go back to class now. Sorry about your tomatoes,” I said, hanging up before he could hear me, and the rest of the office burst out laughing.
Over the years, my husband has built a fence, added chicken wire, netting, dug trenches, and even filled woodchuck holes with roadkill. One year he caught one…and set it free. He can’t hurt animals. Not even ants or bees, so how could he harm a fuzzy fellow with big, sweet eyes? Impossible! And so, every year they return…along with the rabbits, squirrels, chipmunks, skunks, possum, birds and deer.
Given all the time on his hands during the lockdown in 2020, he dedicated a great deal of time to the garden. He built raised beds, bought more soil, and perfected the combination of chicken poop, cow manure, and peat moss that he uses. Last year and this, we have had tomato plants on steroids. It’s quite spectacular. Both years, the little creatures did away with the cucumber, parsley and zucchini with relative quickness. My mint plants are growing profusely (apparently, none of the little fuzzies like mint). And the tomatoes? The tomatoes have grown to tower over us, weaving their way through the netting that was added last year when birds joined the group of crop destroyers. Even so, they have begun to eat tomato plants and green tomatoes.
A few weeks ago, my husband cursed the garden and swore that this was the last year he would ever plant again. The sweet furry garden creature(s) had bitten and discarded at least ten plants. Dismayed that he was so distraught, I decided it was time for me to get involved.
I suggested the time-honored custom of farmers everywhere: a scarecrow.
All the how-to sites suggested newspaper or straw as stuffing. Lacking both, I decided to use old clothes stuffed in garbage bags (so only the outerwear would get wet in the summer rains). I scavenged the bins under my son’s bed where clothes had been gathering dust since he left home three years ago. I found jeans, lots of old underwear, t-shirts and socks. Needing more shape, I found some lackluster pillows in the attic to fill out the upper body. Fully stuffed, it weighed more than me, so I nixed the stake idea and sat him in a chair in the midst of our beautiful, ten-foot tomato plants.
We named him Jason. (That was probably stupid on our part.)
It looked way too real.
I screamed multiple times when entering the garden. My husband got to the point of chatting with Jason while working in the garden. We joked about having nightmares and the scarecrow taking midnight walks.
We were only joking. Ha ha, wouldn’t that be funny, ha ha, just like a horror movie, haha.
Until yesterday we found Jason with one leg over the fence, in the act of climbing.
Yeah, so maybe the four-legged fuzzies got together to get back at the two-legged ones.
It could happen.
But, just in case, Jason has been reduced to his original pieces which have been laundered and packed away, separately, in labeled boxes in the attic.
Maybe we should build a greenhouse…