I Don’t Understand

I don’t understand

How you came into my life

I don’t understand

Why I let you in

I don’t understand

Why you wanted

To be apart of the mess that is my life

But for whatever reason, you did

And I couldn’t be happier

I never thought

That I could ever be myself around someone

And they wouldn’t go running the other way

There are very few people

Who have ever accepted me

After really getting to know me

I think you accept me

I think you still like me

It’s amazing really

I think I’m incredibly weird

I probably think I’m weirder than I really am

But somehow, you like me anyway

I don’t understand why

We have so suddenly

Become such big parts of each other's lives

But no matter how it happened,

I’m glad it did

It’s funny really

How in my dreams

I see you more

Clearly

than I ever have before

And every single time

You never say goodbye

You just disappear

And I

Am always left there wondering why

Every day I see you mount an imaginary horse and ride boldly into a place you no longer wish to be.

I see how these last two years have weighed on you and I need you to know that you are not the sum of your life's disappointments.

Do not go into those dark places that haunt you. Someday the light you emit will surround you. It will shine. And in that moment, just as in this one, I will be there.

You are a writer, a singer, a mother, a builder of kindness, and a champion of hope.

You are my dearest friend.

And someday this world will see you as I do.

And you will say:

"Thank God I never gave up!"

We're just another interval in space

Tick

Tick

Tick

Ticking away until our times up.

Don't you feel it?

The heaviness in the air

That bitter stale taste of death

Tick

Tick

Tick

It's almost over, we're almost there

I can feel it

Can't you?

The end is near

Tick

Tick

Ti-

I had a dream

Of you last night

I haven’t seen your face

In a very long time

It was the strangest thing

Before I woke

you turned to walk away

A feeling all too familiar

As I let out a sigh

I whispered to you, goodbye

And behind you

I saw a message

Written

on the concrete tunnel

It’s a shame

You were

a dream

Is what it read

In the morning

I thought to myself

Indeed

It is a shame