Hello Again, Friends
I've been gone a while, I know
I had to relearn my voice
To the deepest dark I had to go
My fragile mind gave me no choice
Repressed memories of a childhood jaded
Hit me like a ton of bricks
Light shining brightly where once all was shaded
The truth of me making me sick
I had to learn to accept
The reason I have this gift
Inside my mind where my pain is kept
Put on paper to give you a lift
The horror I survived
Now I do remember
Brings my soul to life
A growing poetic ember
So here I am, I'm back again
To share my new perspective
On love and loss, I paid the cost
My vision more reflective.
Snow Globe
Here and now
Perfectly this
Skin of suede subtly lit up
Lips moist for a kiss
With stars in luminescent eyes
Cheeks dusted with flakes of snow
Shrugging against the burning wind
Swiftly reddening a near frozen nose
Strands of toasted chestnut blustering under a cozy hat
Chilled chiseled hands shoved deep into pockets
Voice leaving ice crystals careening through frosty air between us
Forcing my swelling heart free of its socket
If only for this brief moment life would suspend
Freedom found frozen through time with you
Reality warped so our moment will not end
Encased in this stunning winter view
Not a Suicide Note
Would you care
If you woke up and I wasn't there
Would you think the worst of me first
Would you accuse me, degrade me and curse
Would you worry and call my family looking
Or would you think your ignoring me was working
Would you care
If you never again heard my voice
Would you miss my laugh, my singing
My hmmming and huuuhing until I made a choice
Would you miss the way we move together
Or the suppleness of my skin
Would you wish we had been braver with each other, not waiting for the other to begin
Would you care
If you tried to call and I didn't pick up
Would you assume something sinister, a betrayal by hook up
Would you care
If you found me by the end of the day
Lifeless and broken and bleeding from the things you constantly say
Would you care
Cinematic Universe
When did cinematic societal standards become reality
With inclusivity of exclusion, following the trends as seen on tv
What was meant as entertainment, an extreme and exaggerative display
Has been so internalized and regurgitated it is now alive and active in the day to day
First watching then practicing these behaviors and remaining oblivious to underlying lessons
Reinforcing blatant ignorance, perpetuating toxic demonstrations
So ingrained within narcissistic systems, now virtually undetectable
Slaving away for minimum fulfillment is deemed customarily acceptable
A Sense of Abandon
In deafening silence I scream without a sound
Lying in wait to hear more than a single heart's pound
In crowded emptiness I am crushed by the space
Hoping to touch more than just the same lonely face
In blinding darkness my shut eyes are straining
Longing to see more than the same shadow feigning
In draughty waters my tongue shrivels under the tide
Craving to taste more than these flavors that collide
In a barren field of pungency my nose burns as I try to breathe
The odor of nothingness is putrescent as my lonely senses turn to grieve