Love & other ghosts
I believe in in love, hope and all the ghosts, even if your shadow is just a glimpse of the man you used to be. I believe in your words as they make the paper melt like soft wax , pouring from your veins. You are not the darkness you fight, you are the light that sparks me. Slowly flickering against a book of matches. Awaiting for the fuel of a thousand kerosene lamps keeping the room ablaze. There is life in this room, even within the blank walls that seem to create the shadows of you at 3 am. Tho those shadows are just reflections of you and all the lessons life has cast. You have the ability to outshine the ghost, you have purpose and you hold all the ink to spill across the page. Maybe you will allow me to touch your hand, let me grace your heart. As a friend who will never stop believing in the ghost and the hollow bones. Perhaps you were never looking for the light and just wanted someone to take hold of your dark heart. So here are my hands,they shake but they are steady like the rain. A way to be touched when the rest of the world seems to cold to hold your hand.
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Carved
I carved my name among the whispering pines
Etched each letter with a knife
Too sharp for me to hold
I scraped away the layers of this tree
Watching the letters take shape
Witnessed the blood that spilled Across the bark
As I used all the strength left
Of a shattered heart
Each letter held a syllable
My lips could not speak
As memories
Slipped down my cheeks
I rubbed my fingers across the grain
Where the wood stood
Stained in my deed
For this place will be the only chance
something bigger than promises
Could actually hold onto me
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Lessons
I swear life carved my name into a silver bullet and pierced it straight through my heart. Creating a hole for my spirit to escape. Right between my breast bone a hollow grave, sheltering the darkness, never to witness the light of day. My blood seeped from a wound to escape the body of persecution , trailing to the floor. Leaving Crimson footsteps to my door . As if to welcome a bitter world, trapped among the lovers from all the stories before. The rise and fall of my chest and the ink that graces my page is how I know my heart still beats, even against the feel of steel against my chest. The cold reminder that I am not spared from pain but I have another day to live again. My heart maybe pierced but soul lives on, with every sway of the pen, my ink is mixed with love , blood and regret … A lesson my heart will never forget.
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Home
I was born beyond the thickets of wild blueberry bushes and endless country roads. Where the sun shined down over fields where my mothers lilacs grow. Dirt roads and pebbled lanes would lead you anywhere but home. Bare feet on summers earth, lakes of cedar where pine trees choose to grow. Whispers of bonfires at night kept us behaving through the daylight. Tire swings hung from thriving oaks, flying higher than the eagles soar. Setting Suns , creating blushing skies , a rush to hurry and get suppers started. Old country bells ring to announce a feast , on front porches with lemonade at your feet. The night falling into darkness, the sparks from timbers clouding tired minds with smoke. Moonshine jars filled with sweet tea, all the long while, whispers Come dance with me… Music of the fiddle played , laughter fills my heart. A smile , a place… Where my heart grows wild, upon the nectar of a barefoot child.
All the sunsets in the world could not hold a flame to the childhood I spent on country land
So Hard
(this song is dedicated to all the people that try to sing on You Tube)
I tried so hard to write this song
but the words and the music all came out so wrong
I tried so hard to sing and I tried so hard to play
and if you'd only listen it would make my whole day
I have a dream of fortune and fame
and everybody here is gonna know my name
but I have 13 views and no comments or likes
I have 1 subscriber and you know this really bites
so hard
so hard
I tried so hard but I can't be found
get my head out of the clouds and my feet back on the ground
I tried so hard but you dont know who I am
beat my head against the wall but I'll try it all again
I have a dream of fortune and fame
and everybody here is gonna know my name
but I have 13 views and no comments or likes
I have 1 subscriber and you know this really bites
so hard
so hard
can't write like Alec Benjamin, can't sing like Abby Glover
I'm not cute like Conan Grey and I'm really not so clever
I'm going to try my best even if that's not enough
never get a break and you know that it's so tough
I have a dream of fortune and fame
and everybody here is gonna know my name
but I have 13 views and no comments or likes
I have 1 subscriber and you know this really bites
so hard
so hard
Human
Made up of a central mind,
Where sanity can be difficult to find
Filled to the brim
With contradictions created on a whim
Mistakes, flaws, they master it all,
Struggling to stand tall
Inevitably, history repeats,
From which darkness secretes
No matter what, they try,
Overcoming adversity, even as they cry
Dying Message
Your entire life,
You've been torn
Trapped between
A fear of the unknown,
And a desire for the end
To approach faster
Now that I'm finally here,
Tell me,
What is it you feel?
Is it overwhelming dread,
Or ardent, inescapable joy?
Well, tell me,
You foolish girl
What is it you feel
In death?
WHEN I THINK OF YOU
Verse I:
When I think of you
My knees go weak
My mind goes blank
and I just can't speak
and it's not a mystery
what happening to me
I know I should conceal it
but everyone can see
That I'm in love
Verse II:
Everyday tasks
are getting hard to perform
I'm starting to think
you might be that perfect storm
that swept into my life
and turned it upside down
and I just can't wait
to see you coming around
cause I'm in love
Chorus:
What'cha you doing?
What'cha you doing to me?
What'cha you doing?
What'cha you doing to me?
What'cha you doing?
What'cha you doing to me?
What'cha you doing?
What'cha you doing to me?
Verse III:
The sun's shining so
and it's blinding my sight
I need you close
to tell me everything's alright
I just want to know
If you're feeling this too
please don't leave me
feeling sad and blue
Cause I'm in love
Chorus:
What'cha you doing?
What'cha you doing to me?
What'cha you doing?
What'cha you doing to me?
What'cha you doing?
What'cha you doing to me?
What'cha you doing?
What'cha you doing to me?
Ending:
I count the stars above
and I wonder if you could fall in love
Why would I think that you'd be into me
When there's so many other people you could see
Missing You
I found myself sleeping on your side of the bed, I thought it was because I like sleeping closer to the door. I realized that it is because I miss you.
But I have to do this, return your stony silence, not allow my heart to speak, because I’ve always come to save you.
Only God can do that.
You are running harder and faster than ever, your heart becoming more proud every day. It crushes me to see you like this. More than your words of hatred do.
You told me that you hope I die. God showed me that’s a lie. And that deep inside, you wish you would die, so you lash out and blame me for it all.
The man I love so much, is a broken boy.
Sleeping on the couch and fighting God.
So I’m here, on your side, because I miss you.