You have a million reasons for me

Reasons for me to stay

Reasons for me to have faith in you

Reasons for me to forgive even when you chewed and spit me out like I’m a piece of Trident gum

Reasons for me to hear you say “I’m sorry”

Reasons for me to adapt to your drunken-like anger

Reasons for me to put up with your idea of assaulting me even though I’m your sister

Guess what? I can't really forgive you

The fights against me at home

The attempted assaults against me at home

The somewhat verbal abuse against me at home

The disrespect against me at home

I may be 17 but even I can be scarred by people like you

You never knew that you’re a bully

Behind your happiness lies a cruel, angry, demeaning, brutally malicious persona that intends to make me go into submission for defending a 8 year old that you had insulted because to be honest, that 8 year old has a bright future with a mind eager enough to get a education

Your attitude is worse than a high school jock

Beg and cry all you like but the bridge has been burnt to ashes

Let me ask you: Did you really want to hurt me?

If you didn’t want to, you would’ve been considerate of my feelings

Guess what? I’m drowning my symbolism of you and finding my own way

We may still share our smiles, laugh, talk, converse with one another just because you and I are in the same family but I won’t feel the same again after what you did on April 20

In other words-you have bruised and scarred me for life

I understand if people might think of me being unjustifiable for not forgiving you and moving on but the pain is too much

Everyday I wake up depressed and deprived of the lack of respect from you and it’s stayed with me since April 20-the day I was maliciously berated by you

To my 16 year old brother-don’t let my smile or happiness fool you because inside of me is a depressed, fatally broken yet bruised version of me that you caused after you destroyed my purpose of being happy at 17 years old because all you ever did on April 20 was made me even sadder with my life

I had it

Had enough time to hate/be bitter

But this time it's worse

Tears in one day

Meaning that I really hate you

For causing a lot of pain on me

With very little sympathy for my fucked up 16 year old self

Now I know that you were nothing short of an asshole who only got back with me

But decided to dump me just to be a loner but I know why

You wanted a skinny girl-not a size 16 girl like me

You think that I can find someone better than you-I won't find someone better than you and it's your fault

And damn right I have the right to hate you because I don't have the right

But I have the right to burn myself in flames and watch myself go

I've never thought I see this day coming

That I would get my heart rebroken my my now college ex today after 12:00 AM midnight by text

Saying that we can be friends but I just heard enough from a 19 year old bastard son of a bitch

I guess I wasn't his type at all

Instead,he wants to have a skinny girl like bro-really? I thought guys were accepting of not so skinny girls but my ex had to dump me for that reason-(sarcastically) just fucking great

After all I did-clear up anything so that I could see him,he admitted that I wasn't that girl anymore so wake me up and screw me to hell now Satan

I'm 16,worthless,stupid,dumb,embarrassed, humiliated,and heartbroken

I'm nothing but poetically heartbroken and ashamed of myself after trusting my lying gut to date him

I'll never be happy again after what had happened

I'll fake smile to hide my tears but I'll cry again

Goodbye my former love

Thanks for murdering me with heartbreak and taking away my life

I hope you're happy

From your worthless ex gf

Yes please don't hesitate to try to bring me down because I'm never changing my poetic ways so good luck slapping your negativity against me if you know that it's karma that will bite you back with a spider bite like a black widow (revengeful ex)

Yes please don't try to restrict my feelings due to me being 16 and being OK with seeing/hearing /reading things that are taboo for my age b/c I'm not a kid anymore or else-you're so vain

Yes please let me have poetic freedom so that I can be my own character without anyone's critism or I'll go Amy Poehler on someone

No matter what you look like,race,religion, gender,or age-violence will always find a way to get you

Violence is a cold hearted action that kills the purpose of enjoying ourselves without the sense of fear

Violence consists of pedophiles, abusers,rapists,violent exlovers,sex offenders with an idea to kill kids or women due to their fucked up sexual fantasies which will end up in a coldplayed fight,murderers that are dressed to kill and bathe in their victim's blood as if they're trying to be the next O.J. Simpson or Charles Manson,terrorists who hate us for our values and beliefs, and mass murders that have no idea what are they even doing trying to hurt humanity due to the lack of common sense of the government that can't brother to promote awareness for mental health issues and instead let them buy guns without a background check ,do anything without stopping them,or if nothing was even wrong with them but just decided to act like a stupid lone wolf scorned revengeful loser and buy a $1 gasoline and use 2 matches to mark his/her revenge or maybe just mad that someone is trying to leave him/her but that scorned person kills the other person in their sleep beating,shooting,stabbing,choking,or suffocating him/her to their deaths without mercy or common sense while the other person plays the innocent person with their cunning ways until police points the truth to the alleged innocent person who inside was a mastermind of the brutal torture with/without reasoning that leaves a trail of blood which represents the last moments before they are taken by a hateful sin of murder

One of these days,we have drug traffickers who will do anything for money like they're trying to be Tony Montana but in a deadly,murderous and twisted game of life and death and sex traffickers that like to make a woman their slut,whore,b....,h.. as if they were property with no respect for a woman's value by forcing them to submit to their darkest desires to be used,tortured,and abused without knowing their purpose of freedom without playing the twisted game of survival

Violence kills all and when someone dies of any violence, we all die inside and demand more antiviolence protection from controversial killers like George Zimmerman or Jason Van Dyke who think that they can stand their ground and kill someone

Culture and society should determine how to stop the madness of blood spilling from innocent people being killed

Yes-you hate how I stopped flirting w/you

Yes-you hate how I manage to avoid the weirdest conversation of all time

Anything that has no involvement in you makes you mad

Are you real or just a baller who's a constant caller on my cellphone and tries to be a perverted staller while I'm walking your way like I'm your Kim Kardashian

My life can be one big party but if you're willing to be the "man who never comes home without taking flowers for his romantic angel who sits home waiting for her time to shine in her erotic debut with the love of her life " and always have my back with loyalty, truth,and respect,I'll be your girl who's your partner in crime with these boots that are made for walking all over you.