In Love
I'm in love with a you that doesn't exist
I'm in love with the person I fell in love with
I'm in love with the thought of you
But I'm not, I'm not in love with you
Day dreaming bout what used to be
Seeing things I shouldn't see
Wishing we could turn back the clock
To when I was her and you were him
Cause I'm not her and you're not him
Note:
I know I've been gone for a long time but I want to get into writing and singing again. This is a song I'm working on along with a couple others. Hope you guys like it!
Breathe
breathe
count backwards in three's
don't let yourself spiral
don't let yourself hit the floor
feel the panic
let it happen
and let it go
don't dwell on it
don't go down the rabbit hole
you're gonna need to breathe
count backwards in three's
find a spot to focus on
in the room
when it starts a spinning
look at the colors of the wall
can you find something big
find something small
can you tell me the colors of it all
close your eyes
acknowledge what's going on
reroute your thoughts
think of something happy
reroute your thoughts
away from this place
5-4-3-2-1
Lets start at the top of the order
Could you look
around the room
look at 5 different things
you don't even have to move
Now close your eyes
could you listen to the sounds around you
what are 4 of them?
Touch 3 different objects
feel the different textures
are they hot or are they cold?
Identify 2 different smells
What are they?
Do they smell nice?
Now what's one thing you can taste?
Does it taste sweet?
5-4-3-2-1
don't forget to breathe
count backwards in three's
new song! wow I haven't posted in a while, sorry about that, I'll have to post some previous writes soon! Hope everyone had a good turkey day!!
COVID-19
Soooooooooooo "The Coronavirus" has kinda been shutting everything down recently. I'm pretty upset with it and angry but I can't exactly be like die coronavirus so I guess I'll try to make a little song out of it. Anyways just FYI it's COVID-19, also the title of the song so yeah:
Hi I'm Corona
It's nice to meet you
I've been knocking on your door for a while
It's kinda hard to remember my full name
So here is a fun jingle
To remember me
I'm COVID-19
C - I'm Catchy
O - you're Optimistic I'll leave
V - I'm a Virus
I - I'm Interesting
D - I'm Deadly
times 19
Cause I'm COVID-19
I'm knocking on your door
I'm ready to replicate my evil DNA
I'm knocking on your door
Are you ready for this
I'm COVID-19
C - I'm Catchy
O - you're Optimistic I'll leave
V - I'm a Virus
I - I'm Interesting
D - I'm Deadly
times 19
Cause I'm COVID-19
Cause I'm COVID-19
I'm Corona
P.S. I don't recommend
touching your face
I'm COVID-19
Sorry
There are people on here. People that I really want to push out of my life, to be angry with, to never see or speak to again. But I can’t, I care about them, I love them, and I want what is best for them. That being said, I’ve acted much like the childish mom friend of the group. Trying to get them to do what they should and be ok all the time. This isn’t possible, people have to grow, and learn. These people I will always care about, even if we are no longer friends, even if they hate me, heck even their parents hate me, but that’s fine. I know that I once opened my heart to these people, and I can’t stop caring. I’m sure they thought that I was awful, that I did these things out of hate. I hit a rough patch in life, not knowing what to do, I bottled it, and it came back. That’s where I’m at now. I want to say I’m sorry, if you thought I didn’t care, when I tried desperatly to stop talking to y’all. I cared. So I’m sorry. I’m not sure I can forgive what has happened, on my side or theirs, but I still care, and I will be here for y’all, no matter what, even if your forbidden from talking to me, whatever the case may be, just know, I don’t care, screw rules, they were meant to be broken anyways..
I want you to know
I want you to know that I'll be ok
I want you to know that I'm just dealing with stuff right now, but it will pass
I want you to know, that you don't need to worry about me
I want you to know that I'm not trying to space out, to not do my work
I just can't help it right now
I want you to know that I'm trying
I want you to know that I'm here for you
I want you to know all of this
But I also want you to know what's going through my brain
I can't have both even though both are true
I don't want you to worry
So I'll sit over here
And continue trying
Sad, Angry, or Terrified
Am I terrified
To go back
Am I terrified
To see the diffrences
Am I terrified
To feel the pain
Am I sad
Still penting it up
Am I sad
That there is no going back
Am I angry
At the people who did this
Am I angry
At the world
Am I sad, angry, or terrified
Scared to death to go back
Crying oceans of tears
But screaming my anger on the inside
Am I sad, angry, or terrified
Can it be all at once
Am I sad, angry or terrified
Can it be all at once
You don’t seem to understand
That it is all at once
But I’ve been denying
That I’m scared
I’m scared
Not because of what happened
I’m scared
To feel the pain all over
I’m scared
To live without them
I’m scared
That no one will think it’s important
But it’s so important to me
Am I sad, angry, or terrified
Scared to death to go back
Crying oceans of tears
But screaming my anger on the inside
Am I sad, angry, or terrified
Can it be all at once
Am I sad, angry or terrified
Can it be all at once
You don’t seem to understand
That it is all at once
But I’ve been denying
That I’m sad
I’m sad
But I’ve been putting it away
I’m sad
But I’ve been holding it back
I’m sad
But I don’t want you to see
Am I sad, angry, or terrified
Scared to death to go back
Crying oceans of tears
But screaming my anger on the inside
Am I sad, angry, or terrified
Can it be all at once
Am I sad, angry or terrified
Can it be all at once
You don’t seem to understand
That it is all at once
But I’ve been denying
That I’m angry
I’m angry
At the person who did this
I’m angry
At the world
I’m angry
That I didn’t get to say goodbye
I’m angry
That I’ve denied these feelings for so long
Am I sad, angry, or terrified
Scared to death to go back
Crying oceans of tears
But screaming my anger on the inside
Am I sad, angry, or terrified
I know that it’s all at once
I’m sad, angry, and terrified
I know that it’s all at once
You don’t seem to see
That it’s all at once
But it’s all at once
Am I sad, angry, or terrified
Yeah, I’m sad, angry, and terrified
I Feel Like Many People Need To Hear This(Guess The Song)
What if I told you the world wouldn’t end
If you started showing what’s under your skin?
What if you let ’em all in on the lie?
Even the homecoming queen cries
Yeah, what if I told you the sky wouldn’t fall?
If you lost your composure, said to hell with it all
Not everything pretty sparkles and shines
And even the homecoming queen cries
Oh yeah
Even the homecoming queen cries