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I’m walking on scars . on your faded moonlights

it’s tugging, it’s pulling

yet, I don’t stop . just small curious steps

cautious, but moving forward

drawn to the things that color your atoms

I chose not what to look for

if I see dark matter

that once pulled you in ( deep shadows of pain and doubt lingered )

I don’t stop, my feet are not fractured by the glass on the cold ground

a sign of something

that was once so fragile and loved

that burned the suns in your eyes . that ripped your insides

when beating flesh turns into unanimated shards

( mirrored cracked just from one tap )

you were there

inhaling the dust

recklessly it might seem, I don’t stop

I rest under a tree in your lost woods

only human

need time to recalculate my state

get up - spirit calls , venture through

so, I walk

and in the night I stumble until the light grabs me

grabs me whole

after faded moonlights . came a sun hidden within the universe

that universe was you

catching once again on fire of hope

reflecting in the comets

made of breath constructed from my lungs

last night I was caught into your gravity

falling into those skies

they pulled at me

I couldn’t stop

didn’t want to, if I can be so honest

my light ventured into the darkness before me

never realizing

that I would stop the night

remembering sun rays that were once lost

had the earth shifted , so much that I stumbled into this path?

not a lot, love, just an inch, that’s enough

last night I was caught into your gravity

falling into your skies

and now I stay

walking on scars . on your faded moonlights

both feeling your pain . and melting within your joy

( that simple )

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I’m unfocused . because of words left casually on paper

stabbed with little nothings

that change my sphere

here to witness chaos without no gun

dark lights pulsating in my veins . sticky liquid on a patched throat

collarbone patterns my fear

I’m unfocused . because of words left casually on paper

barely reaching my state

in the fog I regain warmth . on moonstones and daisies

yes, perhaps

waiting for the sun . until it lets me breathe

barely touching those words... shh, I’m in a haze but it will pass

I promise

12 fractured turns of stars and I’ll be there

just a breather, a slow thought

inhale baby , you’re home

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I stepped on broken glass

but it’s your feet that started to bleed

should have been more careful, to not cause you pain

maybe you thought I was made of iron that I stepped on those shards

but your color glass does not hurt me, it never has

the sun always reflecting in it

bringing an eighth color rainbow just on the edge of the spectrum

the pain does not touch the souls of my feet

it twists and bends in my lungs . as I inhale the dust from your broken breaths

your reflections are beautiful to me

and I can’t look away

so much that at times I forget to stop, and instead just walk slowly to you

not seeing the things I might have done wrong

stubborn, my dear . blind to the truths

stuck in my matter, shielding myself from the good that you bring

unwise, I know

yet often , I need a second breath to really take you in, all of you

I stumble in the dark

and finally make my eyes open, when I thought they were open all of this time

I frown at such revelation, constantly in awe

shaking my head at my own unawareness

each portal was unlocked, but I was closed

afraid of the things that you were giving me, or too uncertain to really believe

to grasp those tiny pieces, to embrace them the way they deserved

was... listen to that word intently

read it, touch it, taste it

I’m moving forward now, with better knowledge of what builds your world

a world that is now a part of my own

deep breaths, focused stare, listen please

at times I am blind with you, yet I see you with my heart

every time that my eyes fail me, and my mind objects

I see you

always touching the broken color glass

but never letting go

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opened with all my atoms... constantly . vibrating

build up motion

short breaths and the ocean in my lungs

deep under but breathing , feeling the sun through the waters

drifting slowly , moving forward

so... o p e n e d . yet never bleeding

held in the now, sinking in the matter, as something embraces me

through all the storms I sense the calm

a fight

a struggle

a journey

but calm . yes, calm, somewhere underneath all those scars

and through all the cracks that build my world

fractured, but so alive

in my tones and colors

I am me, I am you.... none and all

hand sinks in my ribs and touches your heart

not here, not now

but from a distance

melting my heartbeats with yours

fingers dance between the lines of these bones

they count the time that has no meaning

and as my eyes gaze at the skies through the waters

the stars shine just as bright and swim in those veins

pushing my blood and sending it to the core

twisting and bending as to fill my lungs

shifting to blue , it catches my stare

eyes bleeding out particles made of ice

this body warms the cold . and melts the pain

drowning out my tears

and soothing this old soul

not all pain is truly that

just space dust from the heart

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share it, trust me

this tangle of ribs and scars . is already opened to you

perhaps in all honesty . it always was

deep breaths

and exhale... better, much better

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the melody of winter white . struck my cords in eternal blue

a light came with a bang

gold tunes strum my wanting cords

infinity spilled in silver vibrations to my shaking core

the night left us in black humming

always humming . count me from the inside

create lyrics within my cells

gentle pulls, rough pushes

wild but continuously in key

pulsating oranges . inhaling the warmth

the intoxicating scent of burned honey

unending waves of sounds

painted into all the ragged grays

and voices

dripping of burgundy cherries

so sweet on the tongue . tingly

delicious . there . f e e l it

elated, the black ashes moved around this sphere

swirling . salt mixed with sweat

taste it

take it . now

lighter than a whisper

pale embers touching my skin

in a song that my heart heard so well

always laced . with warm tones of you

I swallowed the moon, love

with mistreated stars that moaned in the dark

spitting out the sun . that screamed with the dawn

gasping atoms of red

and twisting circles of growing light

the world resonated in painted fibers

each marron gasp . and mint chocolate sigh

screams lost in ultra violet banging on my soul

waves slower than the light

catching up with me

this divine essence

smell it . inhale it

deep breaths

count to three

do you sense it under the lines of your heavy bones?

tangerines stuck in four walls

heated air and a fireplace set in winter

overwhelming

perfect

lost in you

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your words put me in a state

contemplating these . curvy tangled thoughts

exhilarating

it left me in

content

rearranged within the matter of the night sky

I saw no stars

I drank them from a cup

filled myself with light

to the brim . spilling in high motion

your words and actions put me in . a sweet colliding manner

a voice filled with intensity

and heated warmth

calm but raging

so raging in stagnant walls

my dear...

smoother

then

four roses bourbon

so much smoother

still inhaling sharp glass

that has no lines

sand and lightning made you in the night

the thunder that embraced an abyss

the early sun on the skin

all the lines of you in me

embracing the sunrays

always in me

the warmth nearly kills me

oh... every time in such a good way

fallen into this content, you call me

and that's what I am

I call it by my name now

call it by you

by moonlight

and all the things that you unnamed in between

I hear them

sigh

feel

I measure it deeply

heavy comfort underneath the veins

vulnerability set in flames

sugary molasses

melted

and set into this skin

burned smoke

that spoke of you

the night has no end

just stars on my tongue

tingling sensations of rearranged minds

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the light in my veins stretches out

to give you hope

soft whispers building up

small foundations

my future bridges

to you

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with a simple piece of paper . I’m sinking ink in your foundation

touching those callus

yet gentle fingers with my soul

leaving footprints so deep in your bones

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there is gold painting your shattered veins

because even in the darkest of nights stars still linger

expanding in your bloodstream

filling you to the brim

with light so fragile, so tender

mmm... until it slowly ( yes, so slowly ) till it reaches the sides

of your contrasting soul

it’s in your cells, child

inhale it

( you know you’re home )

swallow those stars, threat them in rhythm

devour it like a low humming ( it melts, it’s sticky )

so warm, that it drips in sunsets

it reaches your skin . bronze freckles counted in your heartbeats

silver in moonlit longings

and gold orbs on the edge of the sun

how can you resist it ( feel the calm ) baby, embrace it

a long forgotten memory

of warm skin tasting of light and honey

blooming in your mind

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