If only they understood.
I feel like I am alone in the world
I like a boy but I am a girl
They all call me names like a hetero
My own parents kicked me out of my home
I'm to the point where I don't know what to do
I try to lie and say the rumors aren't true
Why cant I be like everyone else
And be attracted to women like myself
I feel so different and out of place
I want a someone to be my saving grace
Some say I am damned
Some people say they understand
Ive have seen cruelty at its finest
People are heterophobic and closed minded
Sometimes I believe what they say are true
They hate me but secretly I hate me too
Unrequited Love
I love you, you know
Only you don't
I spy on you through the curtains
Of your window across the street
I see your biceps flexing, your pecs firm
And I imagine you placing your arms
Around my shoulders to comfort me
Tiny me snug in your embrace
But it's more than that, you know
Only you don't
I see a kindness in the crinkle of your eyes
The pursing of your sensitive lips
That would feel like silk against mine
As I threw my passion for you
Into that first kiss
And the next
And the next
So you would understand how I feel
I've written you dozens of letters proposing
That we meet and "try each other on for size,"
Only I've never sent them
If I got caught, they'd lock me up for being a pervert
And I'd be stigmatized forever
And you'd be guilty by association,
Something I would never want for you
So I simply watch as you playfully snuggle on the couch
With your husband
Joke and jest and act as normal as every gay man is
And I am jealous
Jealous because I can't love a woman
The way you love a man
And it hurts
Hurts until my insides twist into knots
And my breathing comes in shallow gasps
I feel normal, but I know if I came out
No one would believe me
I am tainted goods
So I hide inside my feelings
Put on the fake smile every day
And bury my true self
Where no one else can reach
Hoping love will still find a way to comfort me
Despite the abomination
Society says I am
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The Outcast of Love
I watched as he loved you
Something I could never do
His hand in yours
Public displays of affection
My unwanted devotion
A love impure
An outcast
For loving outside my sex
To long for the forbidden
Your adoration
Give me a fragment of what you have
Let me know I'm not alone
That this world isn't this cruel
To single me out
As unwanted
A mistake
An abomination
I can't fix who I am
I don't want to
Pining away
Secretly tormented
Taunted by a love
I will never have
Hopelessly unloved
For loving you
Mr. Harding’s Class
The students tumbled into the classroom and sat at their desks. They pulled out their tablets, and propped them up for the day's reading assignment.
"Class, settle down." Mr. Harding's words rang out, and everyone became quiet.
"Today we will discuss an event that occurred more than a hundred years ago, back in 2061. Who knows what that was?"
"The great famine," said Mark. He did not bother raising his hand. Mark just blurts out answers, to the annoyance of the other students who never get a chance.
"Yes Mark, the great famine. Global population increased, and food supplies could not keep up. The governments of the world realized what the main problem was- the poor kept having kids they could not provide for. They implemented forced mass sterilization programs for millions of people, which resulted in an angry public and uprisings in nations all over the world. So, what happened next?" Mr. Harding continued quickly- "Anyone but Mark."
David raised his hand, and Mr. Harding called on him.
"Doctor Jacobi's vaccine."
"Correct David. But technically what Dr. Jacobi invented was not a vaccine, but a Gene Therapy treatment. He introduced it without people's knowledge or the government's authorization into the water supply. It spread through the population, turning heterosexual people homosexual. He knew he would be discovered eventually and they would clean the water supply, so he made sure it would spread beyond those who drank the water. It is transmitted sexually, and even through casual contact like shaking hands. It is also passed on to further generations, ensuring a homosexual populace. Straight people reproduce as an accidental side effect of sex for pleasure, resulting in numerous unwanted children. Doctor Jacobi made sure that defect in straight people no longer harmed the planet. He was executed as a terrorist in his day, but we consider him a hero now, because without him we could not have the paradise we now live in, where everyone has all of their needs met."
Alex raised his hand, and Mr. Harding called on him.
"Why didn't we all die off?" asked Alex.
"Very simple- as you know from your parents, when a gay couple truly wants a child and can provide for them, they have one. Some gay male couples ask a lesbian friend to be a surrogate, Lesbian couples ask a gay male friend to donate sperm. No unwanted pregnancies. No unwanted children. Every child that is born, is born into a loving home."
Jeff's question was next. "What if someone today, um, kind of has feelings for someone they should not?"
The rest of the class turned and looked at Jeff.
"Well, Jeff," said Mr. Harding, "There are some people that are born with a mutation that makes them immune to the gene treatment. They are then sent to hospitals to come up with a customized alternative therapy."
"What if that does not work?" asked Jeff, now appearing very nervous.
"Then that individual is sterilized, for the good of the world as a whole. They can still live out their lives much like asexuals do, but they will not spread their mutation to another generation."
"I guess that is not so bad," said Jeff.
"Do you need to speak to the school nurse, Jeff?" Asked Mr. Harding.
"Yes," said Jeff, and he stood up and left the room.