I was so drunk on you

that I couldn’t see

that you were only

a ship in the harbor

of endless turbulent seas

full of hungry whores

and the rage

of empty bottles discarded.

I hesitated to blot out

the jangling reality

of your hostile façade.

Torn and drowned

in rapture,

I hardly noticed

the deep bloody scars

but I remember

the hammered pain,

the acid tears

burning a hole

in my psyche,

and my frozen heart

and empty soul

as I lost my grip,

piece by piece,

pleading to walk

with you

through savage seas.

Our voyage ended

when you sailed off

without me

but I still craved,

and remembered,

the driving rain

and your vacant eyes

as they drilled craters

into my essence.

I was so drunk on you

That I couldn’t see

All the darkened places

You were leading me.

I gave you all the power

You used it against me

A prisoner held hostage

Ignorantly believing, “I’m free.”

Night into days, days into weeks

My drunken bliss began to fade

Senses clearing, but still impaired

I glimpsed reality behind the facade.

Your scent washed over me

Choking me, burning my lungs

Time stopped in your cold blue eyes

A windowless soul forever young.

Your icy voice resonates

Sends shivers down my spine

A love once pure and innocent

Now more demonic than divine

I was so drunk on you

That I couldn’t see

Our addicting love affair

Would lead to the death of me.

I was so drunk in you

That i couldn't see

The road

the truck

in front of me

I was so drunk in you

That i couldn't hear

The horn

The shouts

Telling me to stop

I was so drunk in you

That i couldn't feel

The impact

My own wounds

Too worried about yours

I was so drunk in you

I couldn't think

Just jumped into action

To get you out

I was so drunk in you

I couldn't breathe

The smoke filling my lungs

I was so drunk in you

I couldn't leave

My soul will forever

Watch over you

My love

Cherubic beast of mine, I was so so drunk on you that I couldn't

See the effluvium of a perfumed dread we both share.

You exhaled and I inhaled, exchanging the rounds of our

Fantasies, like the sand shared between the beach and the shore,

Or perhaps, like the wind between a clear sky and the city ground,

Each giving to get, oh please darling, let us love like they do.

I gape like the oxygen leaving my lungs was fastened to the glass bottle

Clenched by my hand like a lover I refused to lose, 

A lover beguiled by my tear-glossed lips;

Only my mosaic of glass bottles guide me, guide me, guide me,

And they're guiding me like the North Star to drunkenness.

I drank covetously, thirsty and hungry, but it was you who devoured me.

Pretty, pretty lover of mine, you must have loved me

Because you devoured me and left no residue behind.

Cherubic beast of mine, I can only stare into your eyes,

A kaleidescope of the ocean I never learned how to swim in. 

You, with the glass eyes, enticing me with the taste of liquor,

You, with the wet lips, imposing a plight to drink together,

You promised something bigger than I could understand.

It was your breath, your eyes, your lips that housed me in your flesh,

Leaving an opaque yearning of mine, and suddenly I couldn't breathe. 

I threw my head back; the world had already started spinning.

Cheers Darlin’! and I raised my glass into the air, but you didn't drink.

I was left to lick every drop; destined to start a war inside myself like a 

Naked person skidding down a razor blade into a bottle of vodka. 

Drunk on you, drunk off you, drunk off liquor mixed with what was.

I was so drunk on you

I failed to notice that

I was the wine

Spilling down your shirt

Creating a puddle

At your feet

To be wiped away

I was so drunk on you

I couldn't see that

I was the bottle left

On the countertop

To be discarded with

The other recyclables

When trash day

Came around

I was so drunk on you

I didn't notice that

The telltale signs

All pointed to your

Infidelities

And I was nothing but

A common whore

To be pushed away

When it suited you

I was so drunk on you

But now I've sobered up

And see you for

The puddle

The trash

The whore

You really are

And I will have no trouble

Sweeping you out the door

Along with

The rest of the dirt

On the floor

I was so drunk on you

that I couldn't see

Everything you were

who you wanted to be

The stride in your step 

as you moved through the halls

A majestic princess

like the belle of the ball

Your big heart so loving 

with beauty and grace

Your eyes so vast

like the depths of space

I need you like life

treat you with all the care 

I want you forever

so I'll always be there

I hope that the stars

come to a halt

So we can admire

every one of our faults

Mortality fleeting

an end in sight

Come with me to the infinity

in the dead of night

Lets be forever

where youth never cries

To a place where we can be

where love never dies 

I was so drunk on you 

that I couldn't see

You are my soulmate

so please marry me

I was so drunk on you,

that I couldn't see

you were just

as addicted to me

I drank from afar

didn't want you to scare -

Didn't wanna get hurt

letting myself care

Never acted on most

This love in my head

and after some time

you moved on instead

So I drank you alone;

you sobered up fast

falling deeper apart

Never fighting to last

I was trashed; you were not

Until you started on wine

And I downed your extra shot

While pretending I was fine

I'm still wasted, so wasted

and now you're tipsy again too

but I'm fucked up for you

and you're drinking someone new

I was so drunk on you,

that I couldn't see

The way you were manipulating me

Telling me to go

Telling me to stay

Always having to have it your way

I was so drunk on you,

That I couldn't see

The way you would talk down on me

Telling me i'm nothing

Telling me i'm lost

Always having to say i'm worthless

I was so drunk on you,

That I couldn't see

The way you would put your hands on me.

Telling me i'm weak

Telling me to be quiet

Always having to start a riot

I was so drunk on you,

That I couldn't see

The stranger in the mirror looking back at me.

I was so drunk on you, that I couldn't see

past a shallow illusion, a lewd fantasy.

Fated to meet, an illusionists dream,

like honey and caramel, slathered in cream.

What tasted delicious, grew too sickly to bear,

feelings decayed, too cloying to care.

Your thoughts you kept hidden, remaining unseen,

Chewing through money, a shrill slot machine.

Endless parades, fractured laughs, feigned delight.

I drank and I drank, kidding myself, it would all be alright.

But when the money ran dry and the laughs rang too shrill,

I was left holding the can, a bitter sweet pill.

Burned by the knowledge, a hard pill to bear,

I surrendered to wisdom for I really did care.

I cared for connection, harboring a deeper regret,

I sold out to an illusion, and I'll never forget.

For suffer the foolish caught up in a dream

if you believe nothing is better

than honey, caramel and cream.

The talk was of Shakespeare, football

teaching babies, the entitlement of performers

but I was so drunk on you that I couldn't see it was time to leave

The night went on, it became warm and mellow like red wine

you liked my accent, I reminded you of your Aunty

am I old enough to be anyones Aunty?

you asked did I come from the land of your forbears

said no, next door

you laughed

We talked of mutual friends

places in common

Irish airports, tattoos

food and families

at least you talked, I listened 

you took my hand and said my name

you said you would not forget me

I think you already have