Leaving
2013, A year after graduating high school
I had to chose to between staying a prisoner in my dad's house or to break free from the imprisonment.
He opened a door telling me to chose between a guy he thought I was with or to stay with my family
I saw an open door
e opened it wrongly accusing me
There was finally an opening to leave
I took the opportunity and left
I left late at night
My siblings did not know what was happening
I had to leave all 5 of them behind
They were like my kids
We went through a lot together
I protected them for many years
I took care of them
I bacically raised them
I was like there mom
I cooked for them
Bathed them
Took them to school
As they got older I went to their school mettings
Despite all this I chose to leave them
So I can be free from my dad
I didnt speak to them for 4 years
I missed out on birthdays, promotions and graduations
I missed out on a lot all because I wanted to be free from my dad
Till this day our relationships are no longer the same
I abandoned them and they know it
I can't go back and right my wrongs
My hardest moment in my life was leaving my family and not returning to them.
Daily
Pain
Regret
Sorrow
Loneliness
Fearful
Hatred
Betrayal
Death
Remembrance of the past
Knowing of the future
Hoping of the present
Waiting for a life time
Denying the pain
Denying the Regret
Denying the Sorrow
Denying the Loneliness
Submission to fear
Submission to hate
Submission to betrayal
Longing for Death
Death told me,
I will never have pain
I will never have regret
I will never have sorrow
I will never have loneliness
Death told me,
There will no longer be fear
There will no longer be hate
There will no longer be betrayal
Death came and waited
Death never told me about forgiveness
Death never told me about love
Death never told me about hope
Death never told me about life
Life told me about family
Life told me about love
Life told me about happiness
Life told me about forgiveness
Life told me to live
Death told me to die
Daily battles between them
One Will be the winner
Death lost and now waits
Life won and now starts to heal
Life will always be here
Life will always fight off death
Daily
Pain
Regret
Sorrow
Loneliness
Fearful
Hatred
Betrayal
Death
Remembrance of the past
Knowing of the future
Hoping of the present
Waiting for a life time
Denying the pain
Denying the Regret
Denying the Sorrow
Denying the Loneliness
Submission to fear
Submission to hate
Submission to betrayal
Longing for Death
Death told me,
I will never have pain
I will never have regret
I will never have sorrow
I will never have loneliness
Death told me,
There will no longer be fear
There will no longer be hate
There will no longer be betrayal
Death came and waited
Death never told me about forgiveness
Death never told me about love
Death never told me about hope
Death never told me about life
Life told me about family
Life told me about love
Life told me about happiness
Life told me about forgiveness
Life told me to live
Death told me to die
Daily battles between them
One Will be the winner
Death lost and now waits
Life won and now starts to heal
Life will always be here
Life will always fight off death
Betrayal
She made it seem they were happy
She made it seem they were a family
She made it seem they were loved
She made it seem they were number one
He did what he could to make them happy
He did what he can to make them a family
He did what he can to make them feel loved
He did what he can to make them number one
She no longer was happy
He did what he can to make them happy
She no longer thought of the family
He did what he can to keep them a family
She no longer showed them love
He did what he can to make them feel loved
She no longer made them number one
He did what he can to make them number one
She lost sight of their happiness
She lost sight of family
She lost sight of love
She lost sight of her number ones
She abandoned them
She abandoned hope
She abandoned love
She abandoned herself
They were abandoned
They were losing hope
They were losing love
They were losing themselves
He fought for them
He fought for hope
He fought for love
He fought for his family
She is her own happiness
She is her own family
She is her own love
She is number one