My insecurities
A petite girl
Trying to stand tall
With glasses
Yet she won't look far
And prominent eyes
But she won't open it fully
And a smile
So bright, they say
To hide the darkness
With hair that flutters
Tied tightly in a ponytail
She looks in the mirror
And critics every feature
'Why can't I be...'
Eventually, she'll learn that she's uniquely perfect
That she can
Eventually, she'll stand proud as a working woman
Loving every part of herself
And say 'I did.'
Unwind and Relax
Doesn't matter why we go
Doesn't matter how long we're gone
Doesn't matter what we bring
Doesn't matter whether we're ready
I will lie next to you
With my head on your chest
With my eyes lost in yours
With our feet intertwined
We'll cook and talk
Not caring about the time
Like we've got all the time in the world
Like we've finally been set free
Looking at the sky
With the stars shining bright
We'll just admire the beauty
Of what we've been missing all this while
Thinking of You
Give me a topic
And I'll ponder
Hard
About how I could inspire
With what inspired me
A few words down
And I stare at
And amateur's piece
And feel insecurity
Filling up my
Uneasy and fragile heart
What could I write
That would inspire you?
The I hold it in
And give up.
Then when I feel I have
nothing to lose
I let it all out.
Not bothering whether
It's seemingly artistic
enough
I let the words roll off
The tip of my fingers
Like rivulet
Become a water fall
But when I write about you
More like
Wrote
About you.
Inspiration was not a lacking
My heart was teeming with love
For you.
But deliverance.
Words.
My words
Would never be enough
To honor you.
But still I try
To express things slowly
Drop by drop
Holding you in my memory
I let images of you flood in
And I write.
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My friend
Whom I claimed
I loved.
My friend
who loved me But
loved my best friend
more.
I watched you
watch her.
A pang in my heart
every single time.
I smiled when you smiled.
But why did I not
Stop
and Turn back
when I saw your pained expression.
That day.
I hated that day.
I hated myself on that day.
So much.
"Bye"
You said
With an expression
that made my heart drop.
My pride stopped me.
And yet I claimed that I loved you.
I walked away from you that day
And that was the last time I saw you.
Sorry. I am so sorry.
I still love you and hate myself even more each day.
Your smile in the pictures still make me melt.
The ice behind my eyes.
Why did you have to leave
when I left?
Please come back.
No. This is retribution and a reward.
Rest in peace, my dear friend.
Scared to death of losing you
You
leave me
hanging
in suspense.
Sometimes, you make my heart
beat
faster
and stronger, adrenaline coursing through my veins,
with the puzzle in your words
your
deep
voice, and your eyes that seem to
follow me.
But then, you
let your eyes stray
and I fall
deep
into nothing.
Like a horror movie.