directions for life
tarnished silver
can be cleaned
with a liter of water
a spoonful of baking soda
and a square of aluminum foil
brought to a boil
on an old stove top
in the suggestion of spring
drop silver
piece by piece
like history’s doors
coming to a close
let the water roll
absolution at Easter
one minute
for every transgression
pluck the silverware
hot and bright
rinsed clean of sin
I am amber, born from a cut
Pain but no mouth to scream with,
And my imperfections only
Serve to make me more perfect.
I am coal, laid out along a seam
Silent in the crushing dark;
Take a match to my hard skin
Because it's what I was made for, right?
I am ice, drop me and I'll shatter but
Don't delude yourself, you can't thaw me.
I am arctic, and harsh enough to hurt
Anyone foolish enough to handle me.
Time Will Tell
Turning back, I hear the bells
Ringing and I know that
I've gone off track, so far
I wonder if it's too late
And whoever's waiting for me
Is tired and gone home already
I guess in the end, it's not
Much to worry, I hear
A tick somewhere, and
Belated, a tock over there
What I think I know
Isn't anything to be proud of
Growing pains made for long strides but no
Sense of direction
I hope I'll make it, no such
Thing as travel time for me but
Maybe as I walk, my feet will tell
If it's all a waste of a clock
Kill some of these spaces of life
My hands are broken but can
Anyone see past the second line
Jerking between minutes eighteen and
nineteen?
Eventually, dust will collect inside and
Out and my numbers will fade but
The gears will turn and I'll still go
Stuck forever on this path with
A destination delayed until
The moment a decision is made.
Accidents happen.
Car crash, falling debris
Tripped on an uneven pavement
Scraping a knee
Different kinds of accidents
3 things are said to be causing them.
They say,
First is, “I didn’t think.”
Second, “I didn’t see.”
And third,
“I didn’t know.”
I can attest to this.
For I’ve been in one.
First, I didn’t think.
I didn’t think that meeting you
Would lead to the start.
The start of my sleepless nights,
Shortness of breath,
And heartbeats suddenly surging ahead.
Second, I didn’t see.
I didn’t see that you’ll have that effect on me.
You
Who I never really noticed.
You
Who I hadn’t interacted with.
You
Who I didn’t find interesting back then.
Most importantly,
I didn’t know.
I didn’t know that I was already drawn to you.
To your eyes,
Your smile
And the way you think about life.
Before I knew it.
I was already in an accident.
For I’ve accidentally fallen in love
With you.
Middle Name
apologies for all the times
I cared enough to bleed,
and wet the blanket,
make the night colder,
but I've never been good
at this.
it's always less disappointing
to those that never learned
my middle name.
I suppose the secrets out,
truth is spilled from
the vein of reality,
the beats are weak now,
but I still have enough
pressure in my blood
to wait for,
hoping that I wake
from all I've ever been.
in time you'll see,
this is all I have.
Snagging Mars
I'm not sure
What to say
Not looking forward
To the next day
Pills not helping
Crush them up
Half fucking empty
Touch the cup
Sick of this tired of that
Crawling skin waving bat
Fucking up reckless
Sick and helpless
Buried alive
Worlds do collide
Keep on wishing
Shooting stars
As I'm fishing
Snagging Mars
Nothing ideal
It's preposterous
Numb yet I feel
So lost in this
Thinking about death
An awful lot
As if my last breath
Was a blood clott
If life is Broadway
I'm not a dancer
I'd rather not say
I think this is cancer
My only conclusion
Before I'm in the ground
Is to hope for profusion
My written voice passed down
Daniel
Jacob
Dabney
And
My
Blah
Fucking
Blah
06-24-16