Feelings falter.

Freefall.

Fantasies fade.

Feverish fantasies.

Frenzied. Frayed.

Far from forgiveness.

Far from forever.

Is it better

to ponder 1,000 ponds—

Or one pond,

a thousand times?

I can see it

I can feel it

Seeping in my bones

I’m anxious, I’m tired

I always feel alone

I don’t know where you are

I don’t know who I am

I don’t know if I should fall

Or if I should try to stand

The sound of a voice

Trickling through my ears

Fleeting feelings of contentment

Defeating all my fears

I see the smoke rising

I see it in the air

Clouding my mind

Leaving me vulnerable

Leaving me bare

I watch the sun fall from the sky

Like the emotions I cannot fight

I watch the stars appear before my eyes

These observations bringing me light

Restoring my sight

Back to what it once was

Before I became numb

I cannot feel you

Although I wish I could

The love I have inside of me

I wish someone would

See me

The way I see into them

So I can finally feel whole again

  Take my hand and come with me

There is something you should see

  You don't have to give up hope

You don't have to cut the rope

  Come on follow right behind

There's a path that curves and winds

  If we stay right where we should

We won't get lost in the wood

  Don't you dare lose sight of me

I want you close, to hear you breathe

  There's no need for us to part

Hold my hand it's getting dark

  I know where we ought to go

I know what I want to show

  You may not make it on your own

Whether you're small or if you're grown

  Don't fall back it's getting black

We need to stay right on the path

  If we just stick to the trend

Soon we will be at the end

  When we arrive you'll finally see

Where I wanted you to be

  But if you don't like the view

We'll move on to something new.

And again......

I talk the blade

And again.....

It holds my secret

As I bury the sharp edges

Deep inside me

Slicing my fragile skin

Slash after slash

Till I bleed

No scream could be heard

For the echo

Lies silently

Within the cold steel

Heartache......

Entombed deep inside

My red tears

Flowing freely

On the floor

Drip after drip

Till I breathe no more

-Jessa

Your busy hands

Are what I want to kiss

To lessen your tiredness

My busy mind plans ahead

Of how I will take care of you

So you can rest well in my arms

I have many dreams of September

When moon can brighten my darkest night

When nightingale sings to make me smile

When rivers show such crystal clear

When I can be happy not just for a while

I have these dreams of September

When aging means getting better

When being alone will surely end

When new life means I will take care of someone else

When there will be no joy to pretend

I want these dreams of September

To be real and not stay as dreams

To save me from this cell of misery

To make me happy for the rest of my life

To not end my moments of reverie

I know you'll think as you read this

She's such a silly little miss

But you did ask 'What is real?'

So listen close cause here's the deal

We could discuss dimensions and time

Focus in on the universal line

But let's zoom in a bit closer than that

To what you know right under your hat

What's real for me is different for you

Think about perception, desires and view

So many factors that get in the way

You say last week, I say yesterday

Which one is correct matters not at all

Memories can trick yes it does appall

What I see with my own eyes

Could be truth or it may be lies

Opinion doesn't state a fact

Like 'Wow, that man can really act!'

But is fact the same as what is real?

Well, that depends on how you feel.

.....

Reality is what you find

important in your life

Job, kids, mother

maybe it's your wife

Those things are what's real for you

But for me there's a different truth

.....

If you want reality,

look inside of you

If my words you care to heed

I'll give you a small clue

What do you have no doubt

you could never live without?

Whether it be family life

or jobs, careers and avoiding strife

Point of view is reality,

It's individuality

Now I think I've done my part

What's real for you is in your heart.