Racism, bigotry and discrimination,

Why do we do this to each other?

War and hate is the new fixation,

Destroying mothers, fathers, sisters and brothers.

What will it take to end this insanity,

When will we wake up to peace,

Everywhere I look it's depravity,

When will this all just cease?

Religion, culture and ethnicity,

Everyone is different in some way,

Staying silent creates complicity,

End this immorality, we all have a say.

Children are victims of this abhorrence,

Forgetting what it means to be human,

Forgetting that in some way everyone is foreign,

Make hate not war, reject that which is inhuman.

This world needs us to ascend,

Take a stand against human rights violations,

Make it known that it's condemned,

Quit being so damn complacent.

I take the distance in strides.  like the drunk that hides their addiction.  Precise. Careful.  And addled with drink.  I think about the footfalls. Razor sharp and forced. Heavy limbs, heavy heart, heavy eye lids that refuse to close. Too tired to fight the uneasy feeling in limbs as they reach out to an empty bed. I pull your tee shirt to my chest and breathe in the scent of your absence. You still linger on the cotton.  Distressed from time and wear and tear.

Your smell still triggers arousal through the loneliness. And I concentrate on the warmth of your lips against mine. For a moment I've lost my stride. I push it away. In anger or fear. And the heat of the tears brings momentary shock.  I reach for the Marlboro Reds at my side but there's no comfort in the tobacco. Only a dull numbing pain. Heavy and hard. I strike the lighter And hold the flame to the flesh of my hand.  I need to feel something.  Anything but this.  It stings and for a moment I smile and imagine my skin melting away and exposing raw bone and vein. I pour a shot to wipe the vision away.

I want you in my arms. To feel you snuggled in against me. Safe. you're alone. Spoon feeding the monster of your "rebel" pride. We are both damaged goods. Trapped in chaos and frozen by time.

I take the distance in strides. Like a closet addict.

Sometimes a heart can defy reason beyond any boundary. No distance too long to be pulled by such gravity. 

Though improbable the stakes are that stack against you, 

be it walk, climb, or crawl 

it finds my way to you. 

Loves chime hear the song, 

my heart beats the pace, 

I'll step in the rhythm

and to you i race. 

Thanks be to love, 

for it's by such grace 

that i know such riches 

like the joy on my face.

Curly locks around your face,

The whimpers in your sleep,

Make up for the disgrace,

When you were not so sweet.

You pulled my hair,

You hit the cat,

Deciding I wasn't fair,

You weren't having that.

You threw the toys,

Across the room,

And one you threw with joy,

You left me with a sense of doom,

And in that moment,

I regretted having a boy.

That wasn't enough,

You had decided,

That you were Oh so tough,

So at my head you threw your toys,

But no, you did not huff.

Even still, you would not eat,

You wouldn't listen neither,

You threw yourself at my feet,

Because I wanted a breather.

Five hours later,

Still going strong,

You said you were an alligator,

To my demise it seemed that you,

Were not going to bite the neighbor.

Just when I thought that I,

Had had all I could take,

Your eyes went droopy,

But oh for goodness sake,

Now you want to read a book,

Is there anything else you took?

One long hour after that,

You finally shut your eyes,

All that I could do was sigh,

But in the end I took off my hat,

Because despite all of that,

You're the reason I'm alive.

Warmth beneath my feet,

Breeze caressing my hair,

My soul is now replete,

Burning skin that is so fair.

Water matches my eyes,

Sun bearing down,

Sparkling like the skies,

Cannot hear a sound.

Splashing beneath the rays,

The insouciance magnified,

One could remain here for days,

This place is almost paradise.

The sun sets behind the clouds,

Mosquitoes out to devastate,

Tent walls exist to enshroud,

Summer nights seem to vellicate.

Tomorrow we have to leave,

Returning to the mundane,

Even so I do believe,

This river is my true domain.

I live a life of solitary,

Myself as company,

Endless days my chest heavy,

Vacating my home only reluctantly

Conversations non-existent,

Adult interactions cannot be found,

More often feeling indifferent,

My mind seems to have drowned.

In a constant state of loneliness,

Unsure how to change,

The prospect of this seems odious,

My family all estranged.

Friendships are made online,

Connections formed are strong,

It is with them that I align,

If they left could I even go on?

Everything remains the same,

No changes in routine,

Seems like life is a playing a game,

Surviving a land of in between.

Is there an end to this perpetual isolation,

To find who I am again,

Hoping for my own salvation,

A pleasant life I could attain,

If I could only get off this train.

sweet persuasion

rest against my chest

i am full of devotion

if you ain't got none left.

i can listen to the downfall,

sunshine or depression,

it keeps me going on

this ocean.

battle against

the current.

i have fortressed a place

in perfect seclusion,

all for you to come to your senses

and a conclusion

that you were meant to be

here with me.

and if this sweet persuasion

doesn't get you to admit it,

then i'll go about things

in another dimension.

i'll try something more like

annihilation

of every fucking thing

until its just you and me in isolation.

and then you will have to see

that you must be

the answer to

my equation.

Am I doing good enough?

Will you be proud of who I am?

I love you with my entire heart,

I want you to always say can.

I want you to see me succeed,

To have something to aspire to,

Instead of thinking life is guaranteed,

I want you to always say do.

In my life I've had struggles,

They've made me resilient,

I wish to teach you these things,

And make your life brilliant,

Without assembling life's puzzles,

A sentience without troubles.

I cannot envisage your fate,

I cannot guarantee that my dreams for you are true,

I can only be superlative,

And envelope you in loves hue,

My son,

I'd do anything for you.

Getting close to another person,

It's exciting and euphoric,

Whilst also being a poison,

Both blithe and dysphoric.

Unveiling who you are,

Opening your heart,

Giving them the power,

To rip you apart

Is it worth the risk,

To be impuissant,

For the possible bliss?

Start to feel like a nuisance

Perhaps you cannot love,

Maybe the pain is too much,

So you flee the above,

Ignoring passion's touch.

To feel joy and intimacy

You need to peel yourself open,

You need to give away the key,

Take the leap for that which you've chosen.

Getting close to another person,

It's exciting and euphoric,

Whilst also being a poison,

Both blithe and dysphoric.

Unveiling who you are,

Opening your heart,

Giving them the power,

To rip you apart

Is it worth the risk,

To be impuissant,

For the possible bliss?

Start to feel like a nuisance

Perhaps you cannot love,

Maybe the pain is too much,

So you flee the above,

Ignoring passion's touch.

To feel joy and intimacy

You need to peel yourself open,

You need to give away the key,

Take the leap for that which you've chosen.