Hello there,

My name is Lisa. I am 25 years old. And I have psychic abilities. I am at the point in my life where my soul, mind and body are ready to open up to this. It would take me hours to write how I came to this point. But I can describe the context as it is now. I reached a sense of inner peace that has been present for months now. Not only that, I also moved to the north of Norway two and a half weeks ago. Away from the overstimulating city, and reunited with my love, the northern nature. Pretty soon after I arrived, I started to get some hints. That now was the time. That I had reached the level of *readiness* that is required for the next stage in my journey.

Lately, I've been expressing my personal and spiritual journey more in the online space, particularly Instagram and YouTube. But what's currently happening inside of me, requires focus. It's a vulnerable topic, that is believed by few, and I cannot let external energy seep into this part of my journey. That's what I learned today when I shared the topic with my brother and my mother. With people who are there with a lot of love, but who are not there in spiritually. I understand them. The skepticism, the unbelief. They are particularly skeptical because I am entering an online Soul Alignment program with a channeler and energy-healer that costs quite a lot of money, to say the least. So they are afraid that the money won't outweigh the value of the program. But how can I explain that I know with my whole soul that this is the right program for me? I can't. Or, I can, and I did, but that doesn't sound particularly convincing to them. Which I fully and completely understand. It hasn't been too long ago - maybe about four years - that I still believed that when we die, we rot in a our grave, and that's it. That people who believed in spirituality and religion were a bit naive. So who am I to judge people who judge? We have our own beliefs. We are in different stages of the spiritual journey. Plus, there are different things to awaken to, depending on your soul's journey and purpose. Some wake up to extraterrestrial beings. Some wake up to the spirits of the dead. Some follow a more shamanistic path. Others go the Buddhist way. My closest soulfriend and I recently took distance because we are both awakening seriously and we are here with a strong purpose. She takes the Buddhist path, and I, well, I don't think I can put it in a few words, and I have yet to discover what the heck is about to happen in my journey. But, yeah, nature, the spirit realm and energy healing are involved. So that sounds quite shamanistic doesn't it? But, I can't and I won't put my journey in a box. I do not like boxes, they are limiting.

So as I was saying, by talking to my closest family about this very delicate topic, I let external energy inside. What do I mean with that? Every thought and emotion carries electromagnetic energy. Energy is information. After having talked with them, their beliefs are tangible inside my mind and body, disconnecting me from my inner knowing, disturbing my energy, confusing my mind, and blurring my vision. Because this is not an easy journey. It takes me a lot of courage and going through the fire of anxiety to push through with this. I do not have another option, and I think that is something that people who are not going through a spiritual awakening, have a hard time understanding. Yes there is this top-down process where I have the mindset to grow and to awaken as much as possible. But also that, is driven by a strong bottom-up force that has been driving my journey all along. It's like taking a decent dose of psychedelics. It's not like *you* go on the journey. The psychedelic takes you on the journey. Just like the awakening takes me on this journey. And this part of my awakening...dear lord. My ego is shaking her head: "Spirit guides? Angels? Akashic records reading? Psychic abilities? Really? Could it *get* more spiritual?"

And my soul is saying: "I am sorry babes, but yes, it can get more spiritual. You better surrender, cause we have a lot in store for you." "Oh my", my ego says.

I am going all in. And again, this is as much a conscious choice as it is just the force inside of me that is pulling me to that which has to be done. But for this part of my journey, I have to close the door to others. However, I still feel a strong urge to document this journey and share it somewhere. So I thought, why not use my dear account on Prose? Where I can share anything, and at the same time be invisible.

It so happens that I had a little surgery on my foot and that I cannot work for ten days. I have to "rest". Divine timing. What happens when a person is forced to rest? One has to surrender to the feminine. Being, feeling, sensing. And what resides in the divine feminine? Magic. I thanked the universe when I heard that I should not walk on my foot too much for ten days. I looked in the mirror, and smiled, "I know what to do".

I came home from the hospital, sat down in my bed, and typed into the YouTube search bar: "Open up psychic abilities meditation". I did a few meditations and went to sleep with a happy heart. One hour later, I started to hear many birds, ravens more specifically, through my right ear. The exact ear where I felt a kind of stingy sensation during one of the meditations. My whole face trembled from the inside out, as if I am channeling an animal, kind of like a lion or a bear that is roaring. I also started to see some images, I don't remember them quite well because they were vague. But it had to do with nature and I saw a lake.

I realized that I had to completely surrender this time. These kinds of phenomena are not entirely unfamiliar to me. I finally understood why I've been experiencing sleep-paralysis since 2018 and trippy dreams since last year. It is because I am psychic, and information tries to come through me.

My foot starts to really hurt now. The anesthesia is wearing off. What were the doctors thinking to not send me home with painkillers? I have these light paracetamol pills. Maybe I should take a few, and try to fall back asleep.

Either way I think I am about done with writing for today. You will hear more from me. Writing about this is very therapeutic. My first official session of the Soul Alignment program is November 26th. But I think a lot is going to happen in between.

I am going to leave you for now, and I send you much love, because you took the time to read all the way to here <3.

Will be continued...

Oh lord, get ready

Cause my love is strong

And I want to give it

I do not want to control you nor do I want to change you

I am safe no matter how hurt or healed you are

But oh my, I will not limit myself

In loving

Deeply, strongly

I will vibrate my frequency

Whether you like it or not

Whether you are ready to be loved from the highest degree or not

That is your choice

I will not love you less for not being ready for my love

Cause darling, my love is high indeed It's the purest, the realest

My love, baby, is Freedom

Where I am fine with you not being free yet

I am also fine with me wishing freedom for you

Cause I love, and I will never stop

Loving

You

You want to be infinite Love

You want to be infinite Freedom

Because you are infinite Love

And you are infinite Freedom

You want to be You

You are here to break through

To be infinitely You

Love oh man Love is so misunderstood

We humans go around thinking we "Love"

Is it Love when you are only loving to your child when she does something with her degree?

Is it Love when you are only loving to your ex when he still completed your life?

Is it Love when you are only loving to your friend when she is her happiest self?

Is it Love when you are only loving to a person when you share the same values?

Do you think Love is "I want you, I need you, I have feelings for you, I crave you, the thought of you gives me dopamine" ?

Do you think Love is "I love you when you act according to my beliefs"?

That's attachment pretending to be Love

Attached to a person so you may be completed

Attached to your ego so you may feel complete

Welcome to the human illusion of "love"

Pure love and attachment often co-exist

But if we are not awake and aware of the mind, we might not be able to tell them apart

The difference lies in the conditions, you see

The human illusion of love is conditional

True Love is holding space

True Love is giving freedom

True Love is letting be

True Love is soft yet strong

Offering a space for whatever arises, yet being a supportive guidance in the direction of one's highest good

True Love is compassionate understanding for all the illusions and the illusioned

True Love has endless space, encompassing all that is

True Love has no limits

There is nothing that True Love does not love

True Love is Love, free from all conditions

May we all walk the path to realizing the difference between love and Love

Let's go for a walk babes

Dive deep into your body

"Oh hell, there you are"

I am always here

"Right, that's right. I keep forgetting"

Cause you are lost in the maze

You don't find your wisdom there

The mind ain't wise, thoughts ain't wise

"I don't understand"

Do "you" not understand? Or does "your mind" not understand?

"Owh.."

Yeah, feel deeply into your inner body

Welcome to the golden cave where limitless ancient wisdom is stored

"A cave is not very accessible you know, why does it have to be this hard?"

Well that's the game you are playing

Your dual purpose is to "know thyself" ~ discover that you are the gold ~ and to dissolve the sturdy walls of the cave

With every brick you dissolve, more golden light can shine through

"So, what is the fun in this?"

Oh baby, you have no idea

You get to feel like gold. You get to shine like gold. You get to live a life that feels like gold

"Alright, I am ready to play. How do I dissolve the cave?"

With awareness. Awareness is your dissolver

Good luck

Hello You

Hello Exactly what I deserve

Hello What was already mine but it was just a matter of linear time

Hello Big dream that is my alive reality now

Hello Beautiful experience that I am walking through with open, receiving arms

Hello Sun inside of me that was merely obscured by some clouds

Hello Light all around me

Hello True Self,

you are naked and free

Thank You

I was always You

Thank You for the whispers in my ears and the messages from my heart

Thanks me, for connecting with Light until it shined so bright that it dissolved all patterns

And set me free

Until I realized that I was never me, that I was You, and You were Me

This night I met my shadow. A dark energy of "You do not deserve this".

The heavy entity inside of me that wants to keeps me low, in the unconscious. It pulls me back down in the dark when it senses that I am evolving. The dense energetic mass resides in my body, is rooted in anxiety and feeds on anxiety. It is the source of all my limiting thoughts ~ that I often believe to be true.

Meeting my own shadow was insightful and immediately scary. I felt intimidated, and suppressed by its heavy and coercive weight. I reacted with resistance: "I will not let you have me. You will not control me". I tried to break through the dark energy that embraced my being by connecting to the vibrations of my spirit. And then I realized, that I was stuck. For the umpteenth time, I was stuck, in sleep paralysis.

I do not know which was most problematic. The gloomy energy of my shadow, or the anxious fight against it.

Fight and flight are fear responses. It is mainly the fear of the fear that creates the sleep paralysis. I realize that these types of dreams always go as following: I am confronted with a darkness that somehow wants to possess me. Then I fight with the dark. As that clearly never works, I run. From the moment I attempt my escapism, I notice that there is nowhere to go.

Being afraid and fighting against your own darkness is once again, your shadow, in disguise.

If you truly want to wake up to the light after this long unconscious dream, you actually have to be brave and walk the walk through the dark forest. Until you no longer feel brave, but rather calm. Because you realized that the darkness isn't really you. So there is ultimately nothing to be afraid of. For you were the light that was guiding you all along. If you know you are the light, then why would you fight?

When darkness visits me now, I am in total and complete surrender. I have come to love it. For it is this contrast inherent in the human experience that enables this grand opportunity for my soul to grow deeply.

Next time in my sleep paralysis, I might give thanks to my darkness, giving it a gentle smile. For one does not conquer darkness by fighting, one conquers it, by loving.

There is this advice: "Do it for yourself"

But what if no one really knows their "self"?

I would rephrase it and say:

"Do not do it for your ego,

do it for your soul."