Heaven

*Anyone can get in

*You have to be good in your human life

*Angels live there

*You are there for eternity

(but I guess that there are things called fallen angels that if you do something bad you get kicked out....which is so not right)

*It is the most amazing place that has ever existed

*God runs this place

(so I mean, it's sort of like a big, fancy hotel that most people never check out of)

Hell

*Anyone can get in

*You have to do something bad in your human life

(or get sent down from Heaven like Satan did)

*Demons live here

*Satan runs this place

*Made of fire

*The worst place that ever existed

*You suffer for all eternity

(I have never heard of anyways to get out, but that's good after what these people do to get there)

So I dressed in rainbow again today

For the anniversary of

The Stonewall Raids

But the people whom I thought do

Do not actually support me

I wore another rainbow outfit

But my dad flipped

He said it was not a pride day

I said that it was

He asked why no one else

Was dressed in rainbow

I said straight up

"Because not everyone is gay!"

That ticked him off

He doesn't get it

He doesn't understand the struggles

That I go through everyday

I don't understand

Why the world

Still isn't as accepting

As they should be

But I can handle the bullies

No matter their words

No matter how mean

Cuz I know

That what I am doing

Might just help

To make a change

And hopefully people will be

More accepting 

Some day

Thank you to everyone that is not going to reject some one due to their sexuality. Thank you to everyone who is there to lend a helping hand, even when everyone else walks away. You are the people that will make the world happy and united again.

As I sit in my room and watch my T.V, I start to think. 

I am sitting here, 

All alone.

But I do not feel alone, so I am not lonely

But I watched them as I drove away.

They remained in my rear-view mirror.

The car was packed

So I was not alone

But I felt as if I was

So I was lonely

I wish the world

Would learn to accept 

And embrace 

Change

I wish people would understand

That I am ME

And I will not change

Because of some one else

It does not matter

What sexuality you are

Because you

You are human

Whether you be straight

Or gay

Or bi

We are all equal

No one is 

Above anyone else

No one is

Better than anyone else

Love is love

The heart should be

Free to choose

What it wants

I just wish

That the world

Could understand

And accept this

I would be better now

I would have been more accomplished and successful

I would not have made all the mistakes that I had

I would have been a better sister

I would have been a better daughter

I would have been a better friend

I would have been a better girlfriend

I wouldn't have spent all those days in my room

I wouldn't have cried myself to sleep

I wouldn't have tried to take my life

I wouldn't have cut and scratch and bruise myself

If I only knew then what I know now

I would be a better person today

I would be a better person tomorrow

But I would never learn what I need to learn

So I am glad that I

Did not know then

What I know now

I started writing poetry in about second grade. Everyone knows how that is taught: rhyme as much as you can. I did a pretty good job off of it as well. My brain was just sort of wired to rhyme as times, I guess. On top of that, I am not the best at breaking habits, so that is still how I write-only less childish I hope. I also used to write songs, and even though they didn't HAVE to rhyme, they sounded catchier. Same goes with poetry. Think about it; when you are trying to remember something, what do you do? Most of the time, we make up rhymes. I want people to remember my words, so that is why I rhyme.

Life is so unfair

I will not lie to you

People get broken 

People get used

From love lost

Hearts shatter

It feels like

Nothing else matters

The world has been

So unfair to you

Leaving you down

All sad and blue

Now you've given up

You let yourself get hurt

But I care

For what it's worth

Hun, 

I have to say

You deserve better

Both yesterday and today

Don't let them 

Bring you down

Put on a smile

Lose that frown

Who is in control of my life?

Well, it is not me

That's for sure

I am not free

I'm pulled left

I'm pulled right

I'm pulled up and down

No end in sight

I'm like a forming kingdom

I am being fought over

I may not rule myself

But the war is not over

Someone else is always ruling me

My life is hardly mine

At the moments it's the courts 

I truly wish I were lying

I wait for the day

I will own myself

The day I am free

And full of wealth

But for now I am not

For now I am controlled

Left to dream of the day

In which I will not be owned

Life is rough

This I know

But you gotta be tough

You can't let the pain show

It's hard not to cry

In the middle if the day

When all you want is to die

To just fade away

The end could not come fast enough

It's too long a wait

You bear so much stuff

It's been hard since you were eight

Your life used to be great

It was so perfect

Your parents were saints

Everything was worth it

Then your parents split up

And your father left you

Now you're never enough

And you are only used

Your mom became a drunk

And you're hit by your stepdad 

They call you "Junk"

Everything you do is bad

But I know that you're strong

You'll get through it

You feel that all you do is wrong

But it's too soon to quit

So just sleep tight

Have good dreams

Make it through the night

It may be better than it seems