I should be sleeping,

but my eyes are wide.

my heart is racing,

with you by my side

are you really sleeping?

please be a fake snore...

listening to your breathe,

is quite the allure.

how I want to wake you up,

but that would be mean.

I guess I’ll have to close my eyes,

and feel you in my dream.

Have ya ever had one of "those" days.......

Yup, that's the one.

You don't wanna explain it,

Because you, yourself, don't understand.

You feel "meh"

That's right, it's "meh"

Not happy, not angry, not sad,

You don't wanna talk, laugh, or fight,

You just wanna be left alone, to let the"mehness" pass.

But nobody can let it go.......WHY!! is this......

"Meh Day"

I'm so mad I could spit,

throw things, have a hissy fit.

So many things I could say,

to tell you off my own way!

I could jump up and down,

stomp my feet and frown.

yell, scream, and cry,

not caring about the why.

Pouting, as I sit alone,

Secretly glancing at my phone.

Eventually, falling asleep,

waking to that message beep!

"I still love you butthead!!"

Roses are Red,

The Grass is Green,

Sweet, and Sexy

The man in my Dream.

Violets are Blue

The Sun is Yellow,

If only you were real,

You would be my Fellow. 

Lilies are Orange,

Carnations are Pink,

The voices in my head,

Tell me what to Think. 

Irises are Purple

Clouds are white

Keep loving me, says

my imaginary Mr. Right!

When I think of you 

I smile and ache, 

Your thoughtfulness fills me, 

But the miles apart kill me.

One day it will change, 

But the wait, is sooo freaking hard. 

I need you now, don't you see, 

It's your face I want to wake up to see! 

This is love, with the good and the bad,

The emotional ups and downs,

But there's no one else, with whom I'd rather be, 

Because together we were meant to be. 

You have my heart and you hold the key, 

Just a little bit longer and we'll add our own house key! 

If I need you, how will I know you will be there?

I don't feel like I have that right.

I'm always surrounded, yet I stand alone,

Is this my fault ? 

Why do I always have to spell it out, 

Why can't some one, or any one just notice.

I can see everyone else's pain,

And I try to take it away.

Maybe that's the trade off, I can take their pain away,

But it becomes my own to bare.

Cursed. Alone. and Afraid.... but 

I wouldn't change it, if it means you get to smile. 

I can't explain it,

I just simply hurt,

Tears fall, 

I have no reason.

This is the part,

I won't let anyone see,

So frustrated, and angry

At no one, but me.

I do this every time,

When will I learn to bite my tongue,

To hold it in, why must it escape,

I'm so weak, so easy to break. 

Stupid girl, making the same mistake!

If you put me there,

You will only see,

A very small portion, 

And miss what's me. 

Please take me down

I don't wish to hide,

I am human,

Look at the other side. 

For if I stay, disappointed 

You will become,

I know this,

It has happened some.

I've learned a lot,

I've had time to wait,

Please don't doubt,

That this is our fate.

Hold me, don't just look

I'm not fragile, but I will break,

I need you just as bad, 

I swear nothing about this is fake.

I've been shattered, and in pieces,

I've been beaten down,

I've cried myself to sleep,

My sobs being the only sound. 

But my pain I hide,

And my smile I paint,

I've learned to simply cope,

Seee, I'm no saint.

Come closer and you will see,

I come with scars

Chained, and afraid,

Locked away behind those bars. 

So, from my point of view,

Why would you ever desire,

Someone like me, from the top,

It's you that looks like a liar. 

That new smell of school supplies,

The anticipation is in the air,

New shoes squeak the halls,

That buzz that surrounds everyone,

Smiles, and familiar faces,

Hugs for the old, and the new

Tales of summer, and vacations

How fast it all flew

But welcome my students

To this brand new year

I'm just as nervous and excited,

As we all hear that ringing bellllll.......