Dear Past Self
try not to lose your agenda.
it will feel like you lost
your head.
the whole day will pass by you
like you're underwater, you're
swimming, swimming,
people are talking and their lips are moving,
but all you hear are distant gargles.
they're fish, but they don't know it.
you're a fish, and you're the only one
in the deep blue sea.
Forgotten
I found out something new today!
I have an ability,
An ability to be forgotten!
I can make a void in their memories,
And they'll forget all the good times we shared,
And everything we've ever done together.
What do you mean "no"?
Of course I have the ability to be forgotten!
People always say they remember me,
Or else why am I always left out or forgotten?
sappho #31 (poem of jealousy / φαίνεταί μοι)
That man is like a god
just sitting near you listening
close to your voice—delirium—
your laughter dripping mercury
between my ribs and into
my kinetic heart. You turn
to me and I am god and
godless, full of words and
voiceless as my tongue dies and
lithe flame ignites beneath
my skin, consuming light and
sound from senseless
senses sweat erupts and
shivers grip my shoulders I
am paler than the palest grass
with swelling tiny deaths.
Stopping (adapted from Robert Frost’s Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening)
Sometimes I steal myself away
Retreat in thoughts of yesterday
Ignite the flame--control the spark
Rewrite, recast a different play.
The car is off, the street is dark
Lit homes reverberate a bark
From some kept dog in some backyard
Or maybe from a nearby park.
The autumn night is coming hard
On heels of sun's abandoned guard
The shiver outward, inward too
I turn the key, tear up the card.
Memories, frozen, always true
But the mind can heat, recast a few
Imagination is ever new.
Imagination is ever new.
Democracy Deferred (A modern interpretation of Langston Hughes’ Poem, Dream Deferred)
Democracy Deferred
What happens to voters' voices that go unheard?
Do they fall flat
Like a forest that's now clear?
Or metastasize like a cancer--
And produce fear?
Do they reek of desperation?
Or appear illuminated--
like a constellation?
Maybe they just wax and wane
like the minds' of the insane.
Or do they reign?
Original Poem by Langston Hughes
Dream Deferred
What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up
Like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore--
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over--
like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?
Prescription
drugs.
chemicals.
a bunch of
molecules
stuck together.
changedme
savedme
mademe
whole.
i can't live
without it.
i don't want to live
without it.
will i ever live
without
it.
family history
of addiction
drugsalcoholmoneysex
you name it!
we got it!
(let me just check
real quick
behind the counter)
the closet is full.
we hide skeletons
under our feet.
ignore the crunch
of glassy sadness.
Grief sits on my shoulder. a friend with a
familiar face.
i know you.
he nods. entwines pieces of my ancestors
between my teeth.
under my tongue.
scatters the dust of
yesterday's mistakes
in my hair.
under my fingernails.
this legacy is
heavy
and dead.
like a corpse
tied to my ankles.